switharts & darlings

bowling!!

2005-12-17T01:45:00.000-08:00

once again..
Happy 17th birthday to both my soul mates..
my boyfriend & jayn..
and both of them are cousins..
so cool!!
birthdays are a day after..
anyways,i've lots to sayy..
lets start it on boo's birthday...

called boo at exactly midnight..
wished him a very very Happy 17th Birthday..
told him how much i really love him & appreciated him..
but the sad thing was... boo cried on the phone with me..
he thanked me fer the birthday wishes & all those sweet wordings..
then he cried to me when he said he loves me & only god knows how strong that feeling is towards me..
*aww*
then i tried to calm him down,and then i asked why he cried..
so he said...

boo ; "i was never at home alone on d eve of my birthday..
and besides,mummy's not back home & its been 2 days straight she's home late.."
me ; "well,at least i'm here with you on the phone on your special day..
whats more,i'm your girlfriend & i am suppose to be there for u whenever u're lonely.."
boo ; *started crying..again* "baby,i really love you alot.. u've been there for me during my darkest hours & u have never failed to cheer me up.. trying your very best to make me smile again thou u noe its difficult,u still tried ur best & it did cheered me up.. u're the best girlfriend in my life.. & no one's gonna replace u.. honestly.."
me ; "thats so sweet of you.. all i'm asking from u is just to be happy on this special day of yours..i aint gonna get mad at u,or be rude to u*the last time i was rude to u was because of that bitch..*or make u all so angry & worked up..i just wanna listen to ur sweet-sweet voice..its ur special day so dont be sad..alright? i love u & happy birthday again honey!"

& the conversation continues..
so on HIS special day..
i went over to his place to meet him up before going to town..
played taiti with boo.. *i won!!*
then went to Downtown East to play bowling..
boo got 2 free games cause its his b'dae..
and we played 1 game together..
boo won me.. *shoots!at least i won u in taiti.haha!*
then walked to interchange.. top up exlinky..took train to Orchard..
went to Paragon to get the roxy bag that i wanted months ago..
then went to Marks & Spencers..
which boo kept on saying it wrongly..
"Marks & Swensens.." hehee.. =)
then went walk-arounds..
look through foods,foods & more foods..
had dinner together..
spent the whole day together,lovingly..
from 10am to 10pm..
i really hope that it's a day spent happily & its worth while to u on ur special day dear..
took train back home..
then we kissed.goodbye.

another midnight.. on the 16th december...
called jayn.. wished her a happy 17th birthday..
and.. *expected* she cried tooh..
she kept on saying that i'm so sweet..
cause i bothered to call her up & wish her a happy b'dae when i'm like dead sick!
so i said,its the thought that counts... so what if im sick.. i can still talk u noe.. hehe..
couldnt talk that long.. using hp.. haha..

so then,went over to boo's place again..
i slept fer an hour.. too sleepy..
not enuff sleep..
then boo woke me up..
played taiti.. again.....
he won me.. *gawd..i cant believe i lost!*
then boo bathed.. i helped clean up his room..
planned to go to parkway parade..
watch movie..
buy hamster & tortoise food..
but end up we played bowling the whole afternoon..
i was leading sehh.. 2-1..
den the last bowling game we played,boo won..
so its a draw.. 2-2..
lucky you uhh..
walauehh.. * & he will go, "ish.. so cina larh u.. hehe.."*
he was just tryna contradict.. haha..
then we walked to the interchange..
bought sushi's..
boo sent me to my bus bay.. then he went off..
called him when i got home..
okays. done! =)

im tired. wanna sleep.
goodnights. =)
luvya boo!

happy birthday!!

2005-12-15T09:09:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY HONEY!!!

U'LL GET UR PREZZIE SOON,ALRIGHT..
MUST TAKE GOOD GOOD CARE OF THEM TAU..

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!! =)

*MWAHSS!!*
may god lead us to eternal love & happiness!

UR BABYGIRL;
*syakirah...

`you know how to appreciate me..
I'ma stick with you my baby...! (",*

aww...

2005-12-14T23:44:00.000-08:00

again.today was absolute fun!!
whee!!
i came over to boo' s place way early in the morning..
we had plans fer today..
the eve of his 17th birthday..
after 5 yrs of dusty *coughs* room..
hahaa..
we agreed to clean it all up today!
and i admit, it was way2 dirty..& dusty..

after sweeping & vacuum-ing & mopping..
boo planned to rearrange the layout of his room..
the bed. the computer table. the teevee. etc...

but we've got a problem..
sort of.. hahaa..
it's not completely done.. yet..
hahaa... we havent clear off his unuse books & papers & all..
doing it tmr.. on his birthday.. hahaa...

well,tmr's gonna be a very long day for me..
a very very long one.. hahaa..
will be meeting boo in school around maybe 9:30..
buy my book & skirt..
then back to my home..
get change.. * maybe *
to his home.. *cleaning up timee!!*
then to town.. *shopping!!*

okieshh.. midnight's coming real soon..
cant wait cant wait..
hahaa..
i've got a surprise for u honey!!
okays.
will update again.
sometime later..
hehee..

bubbles!
luv ya boo!

miss him? totally!!

2005-12-11T13:22:00.000-08:00

hey.. sowie dint update ytd..
anyways,met boo again..
was only on the phone with him..
chatted like how we used to,always..
told him that i'll be going out to white sands fer awhile..
need to get brown sugar fer the jelly cocktail!!
so there goes boo coming up with his plan to meet up..
its nice thou~ he's very thoughtful..
always wanna meet up with his girlfriend!
obviously, me! hahaaa...

so,boo called when he reached there..
told him to call once he's done with everything..
but he sooo "clever",called me when he just arrived there..
and i was "dumb" enuff to have believed him,
so i practically rushed all the way there from home..

*panting* i thought u're done!?!!
gosh~ you made me rush all the way here & u're still not done..
see larh,i should have gone out of the house later you know..
now i gotta wait till u're done,and u know so well that i hate waiting..
i've had enuff of waiting sehh..

and the only thing he said was...

*sadly* sowiee dear..
i wanted you to be here with me..
i wanna spend much more time with you..

aww~ so sweet sehh..
oh well,spent time with him there..
bought sushi again..
ate at MacD..
laughed here & there..
smiled..
the most sweetest day sehh..
though it was only for awhile..
like 2 hours ajerr.. hahaa..
it was worth it..
and today,boo's out with daddy..
should be celebrating boo's b'dae which is in days' time..

i'm still wondering what to get for boo..
will it still be as planned..?
or am i gonna change my mind..?

okay.bubbles.
luvya boo! =)

bowling was absolute fun!

2005-12-09T22:50:00.000-08:00

heyy there..
i'm back again..
sorry dint blog fer quite sometime..
was kindda busy..
oh well,i had sooo much fun the past few days..

went gym with boo..
and bowling was ABSOLUTE fun!!
went to bowl with boo,ash,naLo,nem & sara..
gawd.. i still suck at bowling sehh..
baby help me!! =(

anyways,met boo just now..
we went shopping!!
hahaa.. not really larh actually..
but we had what i was craving fer weeks ago..
SUSHI!! hahaa..
then,we bought spaggetti,regulator's pasta sauce,mozarella cheese,mushrooms & also minced beef..
after that shopping..
we had dinner together at White Sand's Cavana..
then we went back home..

okie.i'm tired.blog again some time later.. =)
*mwahs!*

why?what?how?

2005-12-03T23:20:00.000-08:00

*30.november.05*
slept really late the night before..waited fer boo's prom to end..
boo called..in the cab with ash,nem & jayn..
boo wasn't himself.. *sigh* oh well......
asked jayn to pass the camera to me since taking cab home...
but too bad larhh,all of them got not enuff money fer the cab fare...
so woke up way-way early in the morning,at 7:30..
bathed.changed.rushed to jayn's place to get my cam.
rushed back home.rushed back to school..& guess what?!
haha.. i was late fer band.. hehee.. *sowie!*
so i came fer band almost 10 liddat..
then after band,was suppose to meet zan..but cancelled..
so called boo,asked him to get ready & all since i'm coming over..
ate lunch-dinner together while playing taiti.. *again* hahaa..
took the train together..but different ways..bedok & paRis..
then.was totally shocked by boo.shudnt mention it..
came over.spent time.chilled.nights.

*01.december.05*
slept late too the night before.. *huggies*
ate breakfast.played game.chilled in the room.
slacked herre & there..spent so much time together.
count down together too.. exactly 0000hrs
HAPPY 8TH MONTHSARY BABY!!!
fine.i cried. *i could feel it*
muackss!!

*02.december.05*
slept late again the night before..
woke early the next day.
slacked.taiti."studied".cleep.
late in the night..
the time when the tears rolled down the cheeks..
I LOVE YOU BABY!
I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU...
I SHALL PROMISE YOU THAT..
YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING..
had a heart -to-heart talk..
the day that we shed our tears together.
thinking about the times shared for the past 8 months together..
hugged one another more..
mwahs! love u!

*03.december.05*
woke up early again.had to.
boo met daddy in the afternoon..
now missing boo so badly..
*sobs sobs*

"where is he?where is he?where is my beautiful guy?
who is he? who is he? who's gonna take me so high?"

love u dear.mwahs.
miss u too. =(
*tears*

b0o's pr0m...

2005-11-29T20:08:00.000-08:00

evening people..
hrms,b0o's prom tonight..
well,met b0o over at his place at 1pm..
had a really mini2 lunch..
hahaa..practically ate chocolates with him..
2 to 3 pieces each ajerr.. haha..
played taiti again..as always lahh now..
eversince he knows how to play it already..
but again,i'm the taiti champion..hehee..
"h0ney,give it up..i always win u.." =p

at 5,b0o bathed..
got his prom clothes & coat ready..
facial,shoes,socks & everything else lahh..
helped b0o siap2.. put his facial,perfume & all..
then ash called..met him at the side gate.. took cab larhh..
dropped off at simei mrt station..
then we took seperate trains..
before that,took photo of ash & b0o..
then ash helped take photo of me & b0o!
thank you so much ash! =D

so yerps,now i'm back home..
totally bored..
online too..
*sigh* nothing to so already sehh..
if not will be talking to b0o on the phone now..
missing you b0o!

mwahs!
may you have the most enjoyable & memorable day tonight!
with love,ur girlF;
syakirah (",*

whee...

2005-11-28T21:43:00.000-08:00

hrmm,had band just now..from 9 till 12.30..like always,we end half an hour later..*sigh* but good thing was,i was praised..miss yip gave a new set of song piece,we had to play it right there & than..so,after we played it,she praised me! WHEE!i was totally elated.. but hey,not tryna exagerate more thou..
khekhe..oh well,met b0o after band..went over to his place.. planned to search for jobs with him..but it seems like the plan was screwed up.. haha..we practically played taiti the whole afternoon..around evening,we went to the gym..b0o's tryna get his pacs back.. *hurry up*eheks..then went back to his place,he mandi2,siap2 den had dinner..ate mee soto & mee goreng basah at the CC there..played taiti also.. non stop sehh play taiti..
then b0o called mummy..asked her to fetch..but mummy was already at nenek's house & absolutely busy..so,b0o had to go there on his own..walked to the mrt station,took different trains..goodbye.kissed.
*a day before b0o's prom,4 days to our 8th monthsary*love ya h0ney! *MWAHS*

Chalet Was A Blast!

2005-11-27T20:04:00.000-08:00

Hey people,long time I never update.. Well here goes..

23.11.05
Dint go for band.Woke up very very late.So end up,I met boo at 11 over at his place.Planned to go gym but boo was not in the mood.So yeaps,had lunch with him at his place also.Boo cooked!Hehee..Delicious!!
Then I had to go back home in the afternoon.Cleaned the house first then went out again.Planned to meet Farhan at Downtown since he had a chalet going on there.But too bad,dint meet him cause his teacher was there.Shoots sehh!So yeah,left Boo's place malancholy.Went there on my own,have to go back on my own too.So I just step out of the house without saying goodbye or even giving him a kiss.Was really heart-broken!
Dint even turn back to have another look at him.I just walked away.While walking near the roadside,still at his condo,he msged.

Boo; "i luv u dear!"
Me; "ya..ok.."
Boo; "whr r u nw? wait for me.I'm coming down now."
Me; "it's ok..i board the bus already..u just stay home & watch tv lah.."
Boo; "ouhok...u jgn angry kat i uh..lau u nk i mit u nti i dun mind k.."
Me; "mesti lah..bih i had to go over there on my own..come back also on my way..tu pun bcos u nk watch tv.."
and the conversation goes..

end up i met boo at the mini field opposite white sands primary..he had soccer training..den had dinner with him at downtown's kfc..den mummy fetch us there.. she send me home first..den boo send me up to my door step..kissed.goodbye.

24.11.05 to 25.11.05
met boo early in the morning at his place.got him ready and all.walked to the bus stop.took 12 to pasir ris interchange.met ash & his friend darryl at the NTUC.Then nem & his couz came.Sara was last.They went shopping.me n boo just sat & wait fer them.they bought maggie,chickens,sausages and lots more..
then took 21.changed bus.took 29.reached changi beach club.cant check in till after 1.so all of us went for a swim.was thinking sara will be using two-piece.but end up no.haiy.was alone in that.gosh!among all the guys!hahaa.boo wore the boxers i bought fer him.SO HOT!! ;)
spent lots of time together with all of them.garrett and others came later on..late in the night it was totally full house!there were around 12-14 people.haha.. total fun & laughter!went karaoke.boo dedicated & sang me a song.i cried!haha.but it was really sweet of him..thanks boo! i love u! den daddy fetch me home.
met boo again the next day.went there on my own.was kindda solemn though.not much people was there.some went home.got stuffs to do n all lahh..end up left with only 5 people.haha.so me n boo played taiti the whole afternoon together.was winning.but end up i lost.haizz.den went for a swim again in the evening.and then boo was not in the mood.dunno why.so,went home with him that night..jayn n the rest went home on saturday noon.

so yups.that was what i did for the past days..totally exhausted.meeting boo again tomorrow.after band.going gym.missing u dear! cant wait to meet u tomorrow. mwahs! =)
will update again soon. see ya! ;D

wonderfully great!

2005-11-14T23:45:00.000-08:00

Woke up kindda late today.Was suppose to meet my boo at 0800hrs.But then I woke up at 0711hrs.Not enough time for me to bathe and get dress by 0730hrs..So,while i was bathing,boo called.Asked me where i am now.So,i was kindda speechless for a moment..Was afraid he might be mad at me for being late and all that...

Met him then had so much fun together.. Had our bRunch at Banquet.. We bought fish & chips combo meal.. That is the fish & chips plus its mushroom soup & garlic bread.. And boo bought Dumpling noodles.. And to be frank,the noodles were totally tasteless!! Hahaa.. But we did finish it up though.. Last but not least,we had CHEESE FRIES!! We toally devoured it.. Hehee.. =D

Soon after,i made a move at 1745hrs.. Was in the bus on the way home then Farid called.. Asked me if I was home or not.. Cause he and his friends wanna come over for raya-ing.. I had to rush home!! Was absolutely tired!! Then they came after maghrib.. My 3e1 friends came over.. Nurul,Ros,Razi,Farid & Syazzy.. Siti,Fathiah & Awal couldnt come along.. =(

Well,not much more to write.. Totally exhausted! Write to you tomorrow aights?.. love ya!

=P muacks!

Fly Away...

2005-11-13T02:45:00.000-08:00

Free City,dys is a shout out to every young brother ya know
Thats doin his thing right now,keep ya head up...
He's walkin the yard wishin he had wings
Ya know so he could fly up out that joint,man!

If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn't come back no more
I, I'd turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See, now I know
Hey, that it won't be easy
I done fought in a battle, and I done made it this far

Man, it's the longest yard I ever had to get in my life
And see my life ain't right, if my wife don't write
My niggas cant eat if the fish don't bite
My raise the gross sales, like Mike and Ike
Now big brother almighty
I keep a gamma ray, i'ma G-5 G
Take a G-5 jeep, G-5 deep
Too some of their bare feet
And that jeep don't speak
Listen mayne they lock it down round herre
See body bag and gag and your found round herre
This as serious as it sound round herre
The guards guard the ground, 4 pounds round herre
And they ain't playin, they're just lettin you know
That anything they want to happen, nigga happen real slow
Get the word from upstairs, put you in that hole
I cant take it, I'm just ready to go

[Chorus]
If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn't come back no more
I, I'd turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See, now I know
Hey, that it won't be easy
I done fought in a battle, and I done made it this far
I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard
Yeah yeah, its still the longest yard
Uh uh, its still the longest yard
Um um, its still the longest yard
I done fought in a battle and I done made it this far...

I'm in my cell 20 hours a day
And doin push-ups ever hour a day
Cause im tryin to keep the cowards away
Thats why im markin off the calendar days
Tryin to get it out of the way
And im just tryin to keep a piece of mine
And im gon shame a motherfucker with a piece of mine
Cause he tryin to take a piece of mine
So im gon slice his ass a piece at a time
But now that they close the door
Lock me in, in a cell 30 deep but its built for 10
Tell me what kind of world they got you in
With the barbed wire fences, box u in
From now, til they turn off the lights
I'ma read anything in sight
Its kinda hard tryin to read at night
But I'ma change my life
And hope another brother take this flight

(Oohh no) I gotta make it out this place some how
(Oohh no) Man I really believe that I done turned it around
(Oohh no) You see, all I need is that second chance to show,
since I crossed the ration, my obligation of rehabilitation
(Oohh no) They can punch me high, and they can kick me low
(Oohh no) Spit on me, it's gonna take more than that for them to break my soul
(Oohh no) Man its hard for people to understand what its like to be,
gated, incarcerated , I just cant take it, but I'ma make it man to see better days

If I could fly away,
If I could I turn around,
If I could fly away...

=)

I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard

Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) by Craig David

2005-11-13T02:19:00.000-08:00

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold (didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[Chorus]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more...

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[Bridge]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

*Obsessed with this song!*
=)

Solemn Raya...

2005-11-04T17:54:00.000-08:00

Well,currently missing him.. Gosh! Messaged him twice and he didn't even reply me back.. How sad can I be eyy!?! Well,I called him
thou.. Not cause I don't trust me or what.. Simply because I was totally bored! And yeah,he answered.. The background were very noisy!
Guess he's happy raya-ing with his family.. So jealous!! Argh!! My family's like working!! And I'm all alone at home.. Come on man!! This is the first time in my entire life,raya is boring! What kind of celebration is this seh?.. Anyways,I've lots to say.. Where should I start?.. Ok.. About att.. Was on the phone with her last night.. She told me that she just broke off with Ahmad Danial.. A 17yr old guy she got to know through the net.. Well,to be honest,I don't really like her being with him.. He's just all so complicated! Hahaa.. Seriously.. He has broke her heart once.. And its because of another girl.. Then he apologised to her.. A few months later,they patch things up.. Then its back to square one.. He broke her heart again.. Why?.. Another girl came in between them.. Sigh~ I feel the sadness she's feeling now.. So I asked her to just relax and all.. Then she mentioned Syerzan's name.. Wonder why?.. Maybe she's still in love with him.. God! I don't know how to believe her.. She keeps on telling me she still loves him and all.. Goodness! Think maturely att! Well,we'll just have to wait and see what happens next.. Praying hard she'll pull herself together.. Actually,its unnessary.. She seems all so -alright- with everything.. She moves on very easily.. Unlike me!! She's so NOT me! Hahaa.. Glad about it though.. Wish you all the luck in the world att~! ;)

Selamat Hari Raya!

2005-11-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!! yeah,its been a year! Woohoo!! Well,was just waiting for the time to come to wish you a happy raya! haha..
Oh well,currently sleepy.. So yeaps,I'll write again later or maybe tomorrow.. Muacks! Love you! :)

7th Monthsary!

2005-11-02T17:30:00.000-08:00

Today's one of the memorable days for me... Yeah,my 7th monthsary with him.. Who? Hud Rayyan.. How fast time flies ehh..
It seems like it was just yesterday that Rayn' said "sweet-girl".. Well,been through all the good & bad times together.. I must admit,
we did fight alot.. But the splendid thing is that we always make the extra effort to settle things as quick as possible.. Its always the
misunderstandings.. Well hey,we are always clinging onto one another thou.. He's such a sweet guy although he can be a little irritating..
I still can endure and tolerate most of his nonsense.. Or should I say all of his nonsense.. Haha.. Coolest guy ever! The most romantic
too.. He's totally pampered.. And I like that.. Hahaa! Anyways,Happy 7th Monthsary Honey!! :)

Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!

2005-08-10T12:07:00.000-07:00

Had the most blastful day yesterday! Met my handsome darling at simei mrt station.. As usual lah,he's late.. So yeaps,took a train ride down to raffles place.. Then back to tampines.. Hahaa.. *craziee!* Plan to catch a movie there,but hey,the timings were too late for me lahh.. *sigh*

Went for dinner at Century Square.. Ate my Fish & Chips.. Dear att Spagetti Bolognese with chicken chop.. Had Cheese Fries too!.. *Yummiee* Then we went walk-around at Century Square.. Went to TABS.. Bought dearie adidas perfume.. Then we went Tampines Mall,checked out Levis' Girls.. Wanted to get this Levis tee,but dear don't allow me to buy it.. *sigh* Please dear...

So yeahs,took the bus home.. Dear fetch me home.. So sweet of you dear! He then called mummie asked where she is.. Then asked mummie to fetch him over at my place.. Talked to mummie for awhile.. Was still scared though.. Hehee.. Mummie's all so sweet.. =) love ya mummie!

Later that night,15 past midnight.. Dear called my home.. Lucky I was on the phone with Kak Jayn.. If not,i dunno what will happen lahh.. Hahaa.. So asked him to call my hp instead.. Talked to him till 1:30 then i fell asleep.. Hehee.. Was really tired lahh.. So yeaps,before we hang up,i asked him what time he wants me to wake him up today.. Hahaa.. He wants to wake up at 2.. Oh well, up to you then.. Ok people, i got to go now.. See ya later.. Bubbles!..

4th monthsary..

2005-08-06T17:35:00.000-07:00

whee.. had a so-called blastful monthsary.. i suppose so lahh.. hahaa.. oh well, anyways, i've had so much fun this few days.. to my girlfriends,sorry if i haven't been spending time with the both of you.. but hey,we are still best of friends you know.. i'll still be there for the both of you.. i'll still be your listening ear.. just need the both of you to understand me.. altough i know i am in the wrong.. well hey, we'll go out together one day ok! girlfriend's day out! alright?..

and baby,please dont hurt me again! and i mean it this time.. seriously.. now you've understand how i feel right?.. " now i just want the best of us as a couple & no third party.." thats what you said.. i've always trust you.. so lets stay this way ok.. =)

and to all the people out there.. thanks for being there for me when i needed it.. especially to the most beloved person,greatest sister ever,Janna! and also my two girlfriends,att & lynn.. =) love all three so much!

well hey,there's nothing much i need to say again.. =) see you when i see you alrights! take care everyone.. =)

muacks!
`raynsbelle..

sports day...

2005-07-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

kukus! haha.. sports day was okay lah.. though i dint win anything.. well, i wasnt in tip-top condition larh.. my leg was really cramped up.. i tried my best to run 200m.. but too bad,i really cant.. it was tough.. real tough.. adeline too cunt make it through.. so yeah, felt dissapointed in myself though.. even with 4 by 1.. its just too tough lahh.. i meant,my legs are already killing me.. idiotic sehh... so yeah, basically, i was so heartbroken.. haha..

whateverso,i enjoyed it all.. sat with farid & the rest of 5C plus 5B's.. jayn & me was like,jumping jumping,cheering for them who was running for the 4 by 4.. baby ran too.. yeah, cheered for him!! *so in love with you dear!* so yeaps, after he ran, gave him my towel.. den he baring on the floor.. *he's baby coming to his rescue!* hehe.. helped him.. ive got to he's my boyfriend you noe.. gave him a bottle of drink.. then he said both his legs cramp.. so, i helped him stretch.. den he was like about to cry.. so sad.. but hey, i was there for him when he needs me.. i just love him so much larh.. no ones gonna tear us apart.. he's mine,now and forever..

mummie,please give us your fullest support.. i love him too much not wanting to let him go despite all the fights we'd been thru.. i wanna take care of you too.. im even thinking of taking care of hariz too.. such a cuddly lil' bro baby has.. hehee

talentnight-sports heats-school..

2005-07-24T11:51:00.000-07:00

huahuahua.. hrms,its been weeks since ive updated.. khekhekhe.. well,talentnight was a blast! met up with lynn first.. went for tuition.. then over to my place.. got changed for the evening.. went over back to lynn's... slacked! make-up! eat! hehee.. made our way to tamp.. drop off first.. went to baby's place.. waited for him.. took the cab over to nem's.. picked nem & sara up.. went to school.. met girlfriends there again..

winners for the talentnight were mostly sec threes.. except for two sec fours.. atiqah won the solo category.. tarmizi won the group category.. arabians won the dance category.. and lastly,syamim's won the band category.. huahuahua! but all of them were great lah.. congratulations to all!!

at the end of it.. took pic with sugarbaby!! muacks!! love ya loads dear!! took two pics.. one of it baby hugged me.. aww! love ya too much now.. hehe.. after talentnight, went to eat at simei's banquet.. baby wanna go there desperately.. so yeah,went there for dinner.. at around 10 we were outside of eastpoint... asked baby if mummie can fetch me home not.. and... YES! hehee.. i was speechless in the car.. too nervous to talk to mummie.. hehee.. so yeaps,mummie fetch me home.. baby sent me to the lif.. later in the night at around 12 plus called baby, told me everything mummie said about me.. hehe.. nice nice! i love it! hehe.. i hope im accepted in your family dear.. (",*

thats about it for talentnight.. now about the sports heats.. well, it went perfectly okae! got 2nd for 100m sprint.. 1st for 4 by 100m.. baby got 4th for 100m sprint.. 2nd i think for 4 by 100m.. u were great dear! muacks! after heats,went for dinner.. then something drastic happened.. but its over now.. nice! hehe.. love ya baby!!

mummie knows the truth about me and rayyan already.. baby told her.. good! u were brave sayang! talked to baby on the phone last night for 3 almost 4 hours straight.. hehee... we really have one another now.. and its only US! we've been together for months already.. no more fightings.. no more misunderstandings.. no more quarelling.. oh! how i just love it! muah muah!

baby confessted that he regretted making me feel sad and angry those times.. so he said,its been 3 weeks we dint argue,fight,quarrel.. so lets stay this way forever.. we'll go thru thick & thin together no matter what.. aww.. lovely u!

and yups,might be meeting baby later.. passing him his cds he's been bugging me for.. hehee.. sorry la dear.. either today or tmr okaes!.. thats abt it.. i wanna go & bathe already.. =) see ya arnd aites people.. bubbles! (",*

love ya kir-rayyan..

confessions?

2005-07-10T20:26:00.000-07:00

woowhee!! haha.. yesterday kan i went out with att kan.. it was really fun lahh.. i mean like,although lynn cant tag along and all.. either girlfriend is there with me.. but i still prefer to have both.. haha.. ok whatever so..

basically,was suppose to meet att outside tampines library..then i smsed her boo.. said i reached already.. then att called say got change of plans of where to meet and all.. so end up met her at interchange mac'ds.. made our way to century square's food court.. to have our bRunch.. hahaa.. breafast plus lunch!! kwang3.. haha..

as per normal, i ate Fish & Chips! woohoO!! and again its the second time i didnt finish it up.. the first time was with sugar at simei's banquet.. after that we went to the library.. found the book for malay project.. zap some pages.. cause the book was not for loan!! argh!! what the hell!! hahaa..

so yeahs,after that planned to go home with mie.. i mean mummy.. then cancel.. cause i was still in the library.. so i still need time.. then mie ask to buy for her the styrofoam for abg farhan's engagement day stuffs.. hahaa.. so yeaps, reached home around 3:30.. smsed sugar at 6 plus.. then at night around 10:15 called sugar.. talked on the phone with him till 12:40 like that.. then called jayn.. talked to her till 2:15..

KabooM! i went to bed straight after that.. set the alarm clock at 6:30am..but i didnt wake up.. hahaa.. too tired.. so yeah, off the alarm & back to sleep.. realised that i only woke up at 1:04pm!! hahaa.. clean my bed.. then was shocked that my hp beep! haha.. sugar smsed me.. whee!! he also just woke up.. haha.. best lah tuu.. lovebirds woke up late.. hehex.. =)

the day went okae.. went over to mama's place.. nenek was there.. then walked home from mama's homey.. it was really windy that was why i walked.. then lynn called.. so talked to her on the phone.. then i hanged up,att called.. ahahaa.. so yeah, it was pretty okae lah today.. not as bad as i thought it would be..

practically now, im studying.. haha.. studied biology already!! woohoo!! so proud of myself!! hahaxx.. girlfriend, u better study tau!! oh well, i wanna go now.. long post already.. hahaa.. oh yah, been listening to "Sugar Sugar".. thanks zam for sending me the song!! woohoo!!

buhbyess.. i mean Bubbles!!
(",* syakirahh.. =)
**miss ya dear!!**

tiring week!

2005-07-09T09:00:00.000-07:00

whoa.. what a week i had sehh.. school started on tuesday due to a holiday on monday.. youth day.. so yeaps, i thought it would be like last time.. reached home kindda early and all.. but hey, hell NO! this whole week i reached home almost 10! everyday!! haha.. i'm damn exhausted.. wondering why im coming home late nowadays..?

i will be in school till 6 with sugar and his friends.. they got SPP.. so im tagging along with them.. its good though.. i really studied.. with sara around also.. ahaks! then after 6 might be out with sugar for dinner.. then we'll walk around for awhile.. monday & wednesday i've got band.. then thursday i had tuition.. so tiring!!

but heys, its okae for me lahh.. as long as i know i still study and i know what im doing in my life..for the better.. hahah! anyways,i end off the week sweet! yesterday after sugar's SPP,we & ashwin walked towards central.. thats what we normally do.. then sugar wanted to go home then lynn wants me to go tuition with her.. so yeah, we planned to just go home straight.. suddenly sugar changed his mind.. *bluergh* he asked if i want to go to the park or not.. so i called ibu tell her where im going.. then she said okae.. (",* love u mum!

so yeahs,we walked there.. to pasir ris park.. sat at the water breaker.. so we had conversations also.. then sugar wanted to take a short nap.. so yeah,he slept and i just sat there staring at the water,looking into the skies.. then i aru jerr baring beside him.. was looking at the stars lahh.. so i closed my eyes.. then he terbangun.. told me not to sleep.. haha.. i wasnt lahh dear.. so yeah after that we sat and talked again.. it was a wonderful evening thou.. the wind blew into us.. then i bebual physics.. haha.. talked about the wind thingy.. then the waves were really splashing to the sand.. so we talked about TRANSVERSE & LONGITUDINAL WAVES!! haha.. kewl lahh!! best!! ahahah!!

so yeaps,we walked towards the bus stop.. then i was already late... so i told sugar we shall take the cab home instead.. haha.. so yeaps, sugar sent me home then the cabbie sent him home.. smsed him after i had my bath.. i slept around 11 plus.. was in the living room.. then terbangun around 1.. so i slept in my room after that.. really tired sehh..

then today im going out with att.. to do malay project.. but not for long uhh.. later ibu marah sehh... hasnt been spending much time with my family thou.. miss them all! muackkss!! so yeah, ive got to go now.. shall update again when ive got the time alright.. and att, thanks for helping me check my emails when i was busy.. love ya girlfriend!

(",* see ya around aights people..
`_ syakirah!

sugar,sugar...

2005-07-05T23:22:00.000-07:00

whee!! school was a blast! haha.. planned to give sugaybaby my tie then i dint get to read his message.. was suppose to meet him at the spiral staircase.. see lahh..! how dumb can i be?! so yeah, saw him at the quadrangle asking his classmate for tie! haixx... bukan nak datang to me tauu si rayyan nie.. hehe.. then he shocked me!! sugar waited for me outside V3 room with efa.. haha.. terkejut girl2.. eheks!

then bebual with him.. smsed him in class.. but 3 ke 4 kali ajer.. so met him during recess.. ashwin & nemanja said i looked so different.. hehex.. i ye ke? *thinking* they also said they can barely recognise me.. ahaha.. that different ke?! anyways,after recess had pure chemistry.. but mr ridzwan wasnt here today.. then guess who took over? Ricardo Chua!! ahahaha!! ok whatever! ahaha..

after school met sugar and his friends.. they got SPP.. so ya,i planned to wait for him.. sara was with her friends. i was with ashwin & efa.. rayyan & nemanja had D&T.. haix.. sedihs! hehex.. anyways,huda, nadia, husaini, khai and the 5B students was somewhere around that area jugak.. then jannah came!! woohoo!!! talked to her and all.. durh! ahakx.. then after SPP,me,rayyan,nemanja & ash went to LP.. ash needed to take some stuffs.. so yeah,accompanied them.. then they took the cab home.. me & rayyan walked to bus stop 3 but end up taking the cab.. hahax.. farnie..!

we went to White Sands.. to eat!!! haha.. ate nasi padang at the foodcourt.. then we had conversations.. then something happened sehh in the foodcourt!! there's this somebody who lost something.. like what rayyan said, maybe a laptop.. haha.. okae2.. then they panic!! so they went to call the security officers to help out and all.. so there was a commotion lah.. *lazy to continue on..* after that sugar tangan gatal go take my hp and called the police!! ahaha.. but i hang up right after it.. i thought he play-play only sehh.. ahaha..

after that we decided to make a move.. walked towards the interchange.. sat there and talk-talk again.. sang songs together.. basically, we spent the evening together today! aww! i love it! hehex.. then i called ibu,told her im gonna meet her and then we shall go home together.. so yeaps, sugar & i left at around 9.50.. so now im back safe & sound at home.. gonna have my sleep soon! and i think sugar's already asleep.. tak ape lah.. anyways dear, if you were to pass by my blog one special day.. i just wanna let you know that....

*i'll always love you no matter what.. let's go thru the ups & downs together.. its you that i wanna share my life with.. cause without you i'll feel lost.. so yeaps, I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH now! the feelings will then grow stronger as each day go by.. do take good care of yourself whenever i'm not around.. muackss!! and btw, no one is able to make me change my feelings towards you.. cause i aint gonna let you go..*

thats it then people.. good nights! sweet dreams! sleep tights! *mmuuaahhss!!*
`syakirah! (",*

why must you say goodbye so soon?

2005-07-02T22:52:00.000-07:00

Summer's come and summer's gone.
I don't wanna see you go..
I don't wanna be alone tonight..
I thought we were more than friends..
But we all came to an end..
I was shocked to see you leave that way..

Why must you say goodbye so soon...?

Where did I go wrong..?
I can't find the reasons..
I can't find the words to say..
Why must you leave me..?
I don't understand..
I just wanna make you stay..

Why must you say goodbye so soon..?

boredness!

2005-07-02T20:00:00.000-07:00

heys, im so bored! i had lots of plans seh for today!! but guess what?! all cancel!! haixx.. sedihs sehh.. i was so looking forward to today.. firstly,i had tuition in the morning.. then after that i got home put my stuffs then went to tampines mall to get myself a pair of shoes.. then on my way home,took the train, met my mum. so i asked if i could go out later with janna and all to ashwin's birthday bash.. then she say no!

alah.. bored sehh.. i was so looking forward to it.. wanna meet my sugarbaby!! then cannot already.. i thought mum would allow me.. so i kind of told rayyan that i'll be going there with him and spend the time with him there.. but hey,sad sehh..

so,since i cant go out. i asked mum if i could rebond my hair.. and she said YES!! *yayness!!!* haha.. might be doing so by tomorrow.. i hope so!! have to!! then it'll be a dream i full filled! also my sugarbaby's dream! hehehe.. awesome!! haha.. oh yah, then sugarbaby smsed me.. he was sort of angry thou. can sense it. im so sorry dear.. a kiss to make it up.. *mmmuuaacckkss!!!!*

so yeah, when i was at tamp. i bought ash's birthday gift too.. was thinking that i could give it to him today.. but cant. haix. sedih tauu.. i cried! im so missing out alot sehh!! tell me about it people!! *boohoo*

anyways, was at home the whole afternoon with my mum.. watched shutters again! but now with my mum lah.. haix.. abg ghal & abg ashraf is here.. lepaks.. a long weekend to spend together with.. but again, i cant seem to forget about my dearest sugarbaby!!! haixx.. im missing u dear!!! alot!!!

then im currently chatting with zam.and att.and mim.im so bored lah.. but hey,i got something new to say.. im really glad that stuffs between husaini & her is already.. was chatting with husaini last night.. but not much conversation thou.. well, to think about it.. i sort of miss husaini. but hey not to that extend.. i miss those times i and husaini used to talk and chat together. gosh! bummer sehh!! hahaa..

im a strong girl now. ive got rayyan with me.. im suppose to miss rayyan not husaini.. hahha.. and i am missing rayyan.. gosh! another bummer.. haha.. wait up... there's another bummer.. im so mad at myself now!!! how can i not be with him right now!! its our 3rd monthsary!!! omg!! shucks man!!

anyways, HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY SUGARBABY!!
i'll always love you no matter what..
there's no reason for us to break apart..
i love you so much rayyan!!

do take care alright... hugs & kisses for u..
oh well, ive got to go now. i wanna study.. have to.. take care everyone.. and ashwin, HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY TO YOU! =)

third term..

2005-06-27T19:14:00.000-07:00

woowhee!!
school's reopened!!
kwang3..
i love it!!!
hehe...

school was alright just now.. got a change in the time table..
its fun though.. again, i thought i wont sleep during history..
haha.. but hey, i slept!!
hahahahaha.. who whudnt sehh when the lesson is so boringg..
especially when u hafta watch a documentary..
argh!! it suckss!!

other than that,school was fantasticc!!!
wohhoo!! no bandd!!!! ahakss!!! greats!!
awesomee!!! kwang3!!!
met sugarbaby after school..
at the dnt room there..
with ashwin..
hrms, hush alrights ash! i trust u.. hehe..
=)

currently online also..
chatting with my girlfriend..
bored sehh.. haixx..
anyways,this isnt suppose to be long..
but summarising, fought with huda.. again..
sort off lahh.. i dunno ahh.. arghh!!!

bubbles!
(",* muackss!!

its a blast!

2005-06-23T21:27:00.000-07:00

whee..today was wonderful..
totally awesome..
i love you!!
heheexx...

okae okae...
woke up kindda late for tuition thou..
called lynn.. she also just woke up..
haha.. typical! best friends mah!!
kwang.kwang.kwang.

so yah,met lynn up under ghal's crib..
saw hakim & shahirah.. but dint get to stop them..
den walked over to tutor's crib..
laughed here and there..
then,was shocked to see that samirah was also there..
she just joined..

tuition ended quite early..
she had to go to malaysia with the tuition people..
the sec 4 guys..
JEALOUS u noee!!!!
arghss!!
hehexxx...

so yah,walked to interchange..
as usual.. hahah..
lynn met an old friend..
and guess what,
i realised that i was LATE when we were at mac'd eating..
ahaha.. so had to rush to school and all..
good thing i reached there on time..

course was fun.. as alwayss.. thou i skipped a dae.. hehe..
this time i came in home clothes.. kwang3..
sajer jerr ehh kir nie..
standard mah.. hehe..

after course went to the hospital furst..
then meet my sugarbaby!!
came over to his place..
to the poolside again.. hehe..
then to the cafeteria..
then we walked over to his aunt's place..
he gotta babysit his lil cousins..
he was late thou.. but sacrificed just to be with me..

aww.. love you loads & always dear!!
mmuuaacckkss!!!
anyways,thanks for being there with me nowadays..
at least it puts my heart at ease.. hehexx..
i feel so safe and strong whenever you are near me..
and hey,u made my heart melt just now..
dint thought that you might still keep that sms..
so sweet of you.. love you loads loads loads!!

so yeah,he fetched me to the bus stop..
thou he was already VERY late to go over his cousins' home..
thanks baby!
oh yah,when i was with him, nemanja called him..
and baby told him he's with me..
gosh.. haha.. nvm lah. i dun mind him knowing..

i suppose baby is still over there..
was smsing him,then he never reply..
one thing you have to know dear..

I LOVE YOU & ALWAYS..
ITS YOU THATS ALWAYS ON MY MIND..
NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU..
THATS WHY I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU..
NOT AT ALL.. NOT EVEN ONCE..
BEING WITH YOU IS THE BEST THING EVER..

and i know that u'll be jealous whenever 'his' name is mentioned.
but dear,you got the right to know everything..
thats why im telling it to you..
so,dont worry okae.. dont be jealous..
=) it'll be YOU that i love now.. & always..

So yeah,he replied me..
but im having doubts on replying it back..
i dont wanna cause anymore problems..
forgive me people.. i mean sis..

basically,im now so bored..
people, call me lah!!!
currently online at msn..
not talking to anybody..
hahakss..
still waiting for sugarbaby to reply..
take care aights dear..
u're currently not feeling that well..

=) okay then people..
i'll stop here..

ouh one more thing..
my bestfriends broke up with their bf's..
MY BESTFRIENDS!! with the s okay..
gosh.. cheer up okay my girlfriends..
im still here for the both of you..

=) girlfriends forever!
gotta go now..
wanna study..
then prepare the stuffs for tomorrow..

muackss!!
love ya sugarbaby!!
love ya girlfriends!!
MMUUAACCKKSS!!!!!
bubblesss!!!

sorry people...

2005-06-22T22:28:00.000-07:00

heyx.. i wanna say sorry to someone..
im really sorry okays..
im still your friend..
he is too..
nothings gonna change that..
i know that u are mad at me and all..
im really sorry..
please dont go hard on it..

=) im so sorry..
forgive me please sis..

bubbles..

what would you do?

2005-06-21T10:15:00.000-07:00

heyx.ive got a friend who has a problem...
a very huge one thou...

she's got a boyfriend.
and thou she took the risk of being with him when he already has a gf,
she never thought that another girl might come into the picture.

now she's in dilemma.
he hasnt smsed her for a day,
and she havent sleep ever since.

dont just say never sleep.
she dint eat too.
this is really killing her.

and the only time she'll be going out with him,
is when he is with his friends.
either to pool,bowling or the pool side.

whats wrong with the world?
whats wrong with the guys?
whats wrong with the girls?

she feel for the other two girls.
they dont even know a single thing about that bf of thiers.
only my friend knows about it.
and she's very strong to have sacrificed it all just for him.
trying to endure the pain he's causing her.

and the reason she is not talking about it to her bf
is because she dont want him to see her feel so hurt.
and yes,she might not have the courage to do so.
reason because she dont wanna lose him.not at all.
why cant that bf of hers think carefully??

its really killing her to the core.
imagine,not sleeping & eating just because of him.
doesnt he know that he's causing all the pain in her?
doesnt he know that whatever shes doing now is so painful to her?

and she has a great feeling that his friends know about it
but just doesnt wanna tell her.

hey,tell it to her lah.the more you guys keep it away from her,
the more hurt she'll be in.
its unfair to treat her like this.
please.
think about her.
so what if you guys love what you all are doing in life.
but not in this way.
leaving a girl writhe in pain.
thats so mean.
if you think that keeping it away from her is best,
sorry,you are wrong.
in fact,it makes it worst.
its like as though you all are playing with her emotions.
think,please...

and another thing about her bf,
he gets jealous whenever she wanna go out with her guy friends.
but when he inform her that he's going out with his girl friends,
she kept quiet about it tau.
do you know that its really strong of her to do so.
she dont show people that shes sad or unhappy.
she'll keep it to herself.
but just prepare for the worst lah.
she'll think so negatively nowadays.
she wasnt like this at all.
its like another person is taking over her.
and i wouldnt wanna see her in this state.
not at all.

in fact her friends wants to see the girl we used to know.
the girl who was always strong with everything.
is able to think between whats right and wrong.
the girl who always laugh and smile.
the girl who always made other people wanna be friends with her.
the girl who will always be cheerful no matter what.
the girl who will write poems for her friends emotions.

now that she's in this state,
how am i suppose to see her the way she is?
i dont wanna lose this special friend of mine.
please god,save her.

how i wish i can be the one who's there for her.
to save her if she cuts herself.
to save her if she starves.
to save her if she drowns.

but when will i be able to do so?
she dont tell me her whereabouts now.
how to find her?
she loves to be at the waterbreakers.
she loves to be by the poolside.
and she is always alone.

thats it.
bubbles.

...

2005-06-20T21:58:00.000-07:00

i'm dead.
people,forgive me for all the wrong things i did to you...
take care alright everyone..

bubbles...

i miss my sugarbaby!

2005-06-19T22:18:00.000-07:00

heyx.
bloggin now.
suppose to change my blogskin.
then i dont feel like doing so.
later i suppose.

hahax..
sugarbaby's in malaysia now..
missing him!!

durh!who wouldnt miss their own bf!?!
anyways,will be waiting for him to come back and sms me!

haix.tomorrow got school.
darns.tired!

currently on the phone with lynn.
as usual,about CashVin.
anyways.hate to be the middle person.

arghs!

weird cousins!!

2005-06-18T10:52:00.000-07:00

haha.. morning people!!
okays. im currently chatting with my cousin on msn..
and im so shock to know something from him..
haha..

it runs in the blood!!!

i do have weird cousins..
weirdos!!!
and i think im one of it too..
ahaks!!

hopefully i can go out later.
i wanna go over to my cousin's place.
i have to!! haha.

the weirdos will be taking over the house!!
okays.thats lame.ahah.

might be meeting sugarbaby later.
see first lah.
that's if sugarbaby wants.

got my hp bill..
*shocking*
i gotta stop it.
now to save up my money n pay for it.. haixx..

goodluck kyrr!!

missing my friends!

2005-06-17T21:29:00.000-07:00

heyx.
i miss my sembawang friends!!
:'( boohoo!!
seriously,i miss them all...

especially when i dint get to send agus off.
alah! why no one ask me to tag along
when u all goin to send him off..

irfan punn..
haixx..
sadness!!

da lah.no mood to blog.
see yah.

vewi shocking indeed.

2005-06-16T09:54:00.000-07:00

hallu people. hrms,woke up in the early morning tryna think what to wear later. haha.
crazy ehk. kwang3! oh well,yesterday was a blast. met syamim in the aftanun. then sugarbaby called me asked me to meet him at the bowling alley. khekhekhe. love u baby!!

i dint expect him to come right over sehh.but hey,it was sweet. at least he thought of me too. he was there cause nemanja and ashwin wanted to play bowling. that was why he called me ask me to tag along.

sadly, i had to leave mim alone. sorry buddy. zam cudnt tag along cause he had soccer. so fit was the one who met mim up. then i planned to meet them again after meeting sugarbaby. but i dint had the time. i had tuition.

so, lynn actually met me at the bowling alley. then we headed off to KFC. sugarbaby's treat! haha. muacks! love ya loads dear! haha. hrms,just because its your treat dear, you dont have to force me to eat ur burger tau. i was already full. waits. corrections.i was already VERY full. khekhex. =) but nevermind lah. then ashwin got fed up at the both of us cause we kept on feeding one another. ahaks! if ure jealous im so sorry ash! eheks! =)

then after eating. they went to play pool. this time round i couldnt tag along. oh boy. sadness.but hey,ive got what i want! hehex. thanks sugarbaby! *winks!* so yeah, planned to meet sugarbaby this afternoon again. hopefully i get to. hehex. im already missing u!! ahah!

anyways,me and lynn then walked to tutor's crib. met lynn's darling on the way there too. *coughs* then when we arrived, a very shocking thing happened. i saw marriza. hehex. okays. *shocking* i noe. hehee. alah,nevermind lah. i wont make foes. instead,i'll be friends. =)

hrms, okays people. im kinda busy right now. i'll blog again when i have the time aights. gotta clean the house first before going out. yayness! meeting him again today. muacks!

love ya all. love ya sugarbaby! =) mmuuacckkss!!

how to deal?

2005-06-12T23:13:00.000-07:00

ever wondered...

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do you deal with
The fact that he had a chance
But he chose to turn away for his career
You gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that you had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do you live
How do you deal without him?

-.take care people!

i will always forgive you.

2005-06-12T23:12:00.000-07:00

Sometimes a man just don’t be a man
It’s not an excuse it’s just how it is
Sometimes the wrong don’t know that they’re wrong
Sometimes the strong ain’t always so strong
Sometimes a girl is gon’ be a girl
She don’t wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows you don’t mean to give it to me...

So girl I’m sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn’t do but I do
Oh so sorry, oh no, oh so sorry...

-.sugarbaby,i'll forgive you.
love ya loads. =) muacks!

i love you i love you.

2005-06-12T23:09:00.000-07:00

the night.
it was tempting.
it was awesome.
i love you.

the night.
by the beach.
on the water breakers.
only us together.

the night.
we held on tight.
we hugged one another.
we kissed all thru the night.

baby,im in love with you.
only you and its true.

-.blog updated! love ya'all. =)

miss euu!!

2005-06-09T18:50:00.000-07:00

heys. sowie dint blog fer quite sometime.
was vewi busy with homeworks and all.
had band this past few days.
and i've got to suffer tomorrow.
we'll be having emaths remedial.
for like 3 - 4 hours!!
haix...

smsed baby. he dint reply.
sobs.
waiting.
going out now.
meeting fit.
bubbles.

mmuacks!

disasterous! ... not!

2005-06-05T13:53:00.000-07:00

it was a disaster!!
but hey, i'm glad its over now...
its a very long story...
thanks jayn for being there when i needed someone...
and baby, look at the bright side..
we still have each other now..
and it'll be for ever...

we'll go through good and bad times together alright..
we're strong enough to settle it..
and your little princess here proved it...
you dont have to regret it..
its something the both of us can learn from..
its an evidence to you that i wont..
and will never give up on our relationship that easily...
now that we still have each other,lets treasure it..
you dont have to cry already..
i'm still yours..
muacks! love you honey!!

"your hazel brown tint eyes watching every move i make,
and that feeling of doubt,it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side,
You're the one and in you i confide.
And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me,
And your love always been so true as can be.
I give my heart to you,
I give my heart,cause nothing can compare in this world to you."

`_ you will always be my boo... muacks!! love you dear!!

luf ya rayyan!!

2005-05-31T07:34:00.000-07:00

whee!! i'm feeling so happy!!
hehx! hrm,firstly...
i was suppose to update this blog yesterday..
but i kind of forgotten about it..
oh well, since i have the time now..
i shall update...

met lynn at 12 over at her place...
got ready everything...
met my baby and the rest in school...
they had mt o'level paper...
so yah, fetch them...
went to loyang point to have our lunch...
then my hand was in pain...
cried a little bit...
dint want him to see me cry though...
sara came along later...

walk them to the taxi stand...
and great thing is, my baby dint tag along with them...
muackss!! love ya honey!!! (",*

so, lynn and another friend walk my baby to the bus stop...
sat with him..talked to him...
then he was already on his way home...
so me and the others went to changi beach...
very shocking.. why? cause i hate to go there!!
but nevermind..

again, met my baby at downtown east at 1630..
they planned to bowl..
and when we arrive, they said they wanna go themepark..
baby was pissed.. he dint wanna go there..
in the end they had their another lunch at BK...
sort things out there..
and yeah! we're off to the billard.. or should i say pool..
hehex.. oh well, you've gotta be 16 to enter..
and i aint 16.. but i got in!! hehe!!
thanks Mr! =)

so yeah, baby played pool..
he was totally great at that..
was impressed..
but i couldnt play along..
haix..
next time then..
muacks!

soon, ashwin and my baby including me took the cab home..
dropped me off first..
sat at the back..
love ya honeyy!!!
mmuuaacckkss!!!

thats about all..
and now i've got to get ready for schooL!!!
i'm gonna be late!!
updating again tonight probably..
miss ya love ya need ya baby!!

take care people..
`princess kyrr =)

im back!!

2005-05-29T23:27:00.000-07:00

Hmm, its been weeks since ive updated.. well,there were reasons behind it though...
anyways,i had an OBS course that i attended to a week before the school ends...
that was 24 may to 28 may 2005...
it was a blast!!
and i mean it...
it rawks alot!!

met new friends..
and the best of all is, its from Fuhua sec!!
and the two person i love most from that school is....
HAFIZAH and MARCUS!!!!
whee.. u guys rawk miee!!

we went thru alot together..
and we were the only watch that was mixed schools...
great..awesome..exciting..
we went kayaking around pulau ketam...
did jetty jumping with the whole team mates...
tracked uphills, downhills, sloppy hills, rocky hills..
hehex.. rafted in one of the 7 quary's in pulau ubin..
was the first watch for most of the activities..
totally awesome!!!
went thru a detour..
the only watch to do so..
went up till 65 metres tall..
looked up upon the biggest quarry in pulau ubin..
SINGAPORE GRANITE QUARRY!!
tracked down again to the german girl's shrine..
tracked up to our campsite.. OBS camp 1!!!
did rock climbing...
had my left arm badly injured..
fizah had sore eyes..
was sent to the polyclinic with fizah by a nurse...
fizah then had to get back to camp 1 alone..
whereby i was on my way to changi hospital for an x ray..
came back with Alliot to camp 1 to have dinner..
then was sent back to where my watch was..
OBS camp 2!! somewhere out there in the wild..
while the others were at base camp 2...
had so much fun together for the last time in the night..
only us.. only cheng ho!

soon,we were seperated..
greenview..fuhua..
goodbyes were the words said by one another..
but fret' not..
numbers were passed around..
will be contacting one another..
=)

now, the night goes on as we are fading away from one another..
one end to the next..
outings will be held soon..
so get ready people!!!

at last.. bloggie updated..
(",* muacks!

yours truly,
princess kyrr!

[[ miss my baby so much.. love ya dear.. ]]
`_ no goodbyes.. only love and affections...
`_ us; together for as long as we can be...
`_ love ya loads and always...
`_ forever is the word...
`_ hud rayyan, i love you more each day!

p.s: tons of homeworks!
but most of them done!
whee! (",* muacks!

at last...

2005-05-13T14:42:00.000-07:00

hey people.. hehe..
sorry its been such a long time since i've updated..
well, so many things happened..
firstly, exams have already started..
and its finishing though..
hehe..
tuesday's the last day..

well, been going out together with eye candy lately..
i just got back from his home..
but with sarah,nemanja and ashwin..
was suppose to swim with them..
wanted to.. but how do you expect me to when i dint bring a single thing with me..
haha..stupid me ryte.. hehx..
eye candy was totally HOT!! and i mean it.. he's so damn hot!!
*you make me melt baby!! i love u more now!!*
after they swam,something happen to eye candy's body though..
nothing bad lah. think he's allergic to something..
he keeps on scratching his body.. gawd! its tough to make him stop seyy..

anyways, went back home with the others.. took the cab home..
but fret' not.. i aint leaving without getting a kiss.. hehe..
actually no lah.. well,maybe yes.. hehex..
got a kiss at the lips.. closed one okays.. hehe..
then gave him at his cheek and lips..
wow!! it was great baby!! hehehe.. he hugged me too..
durh! =)

and went i got home, straight to the tub baby!! hehe..
the day's damn hot.. so yeah, got myself a cold bath..
then had to withdraw some cash..
need to be payed fer my brother's taxi fare..
he as from the hospital..
gosh!! his leg!! omg!!
its difficult to describe..
but one word.. *ouch!!*
damn deep seyy the wound..

now getting ready to meet eye candy again..
then off i'll be to tuition..
meeting lynn there instead..
might be meeting him again after tuition..
it depends.. its all up to him though..
hehex..

anyways, exams were okay.. i managed to do it all..
next two papers.. the tough ones..
BIOLOGY & ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS!!!
help me!! hehe..
okay lah..
i gotta go now..
will be updating again soon..

luv ya eye candy!! muacks!! =)

an apology to my best friend,Lynn..

2005-05-07T00:00:00.000-07:00

sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.
sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.

that's 100 apologies to you lynn.. sorry i dint get to meet u up just now.. im so sorry.. please forgive me.. =) i love you! att too.. without the both of you,my life's empty.. please stick with me. take care gurls..

I love you dear...

2005-04-30T06:50:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. morning everyone.. its been quite some time i've yet to update my blog. khekhe.. sorry people.. i was very very busy with my studies and all.. exams round the corner tau..

one great thing happen... i'm in the same tuition as Lynn!! whee!! hehe.. thanks alot lynn.. this tuition is so damn fun!! especially when asyraf,zaini,hakim,shahirah & you is around... great to the max!!

anyways,yesterday had english & malay paper one. it was okay though. the time allocated was like, erm, malay 2 hours!! english an hour plus plus. haiyosh.. malay paper was the boring part.. i practically can finish it up within an hour. but nopes,i dint. why? cause, i delay the time... write slow2.. hehex.. hanis was the first to finish.. i ended my paper like 10 minutes before everything ends. hehexx!!

then after school,entered general office,hand in my biology worksheet to mrs koh. gosh! why are their names written so small seyy.. difficult to find ey their pigeom holes. but thanks to mr malik,for directing it to me, found it then.

walk towards the canteen with lynn,met rayyan and the rest. ask them where they were heading to. then told them i was going out studying. so yeah,left them. walk out of school with lynn,went over to her place. bumped into bob,khalisa & najat under her blok. buat ape jerr tau dorang tuu sumer. hehexx!! then got to know that they were attached. *notti2* came up with lynn,ate at her place. talk talk to her,listen to the music,she changed. called her mum at kak ayu's crib. then she had to vacuum the house. att then came over.

soon after,we were at my place. mum was at home. entered my room,arranged my worksheets. went to bath!! hehe.. sorry att & lynn if i made u wait. then made our way to white sands. so much of going to the airport.. hehe.. no time lahh.. some other day then we'll be going. so yeah,studied same place. macs! whee!! hehe.. took photos there too.. and *toot* someone saw us. then dunno how to come in and say hello?! ahaks! we left at 6. waited fer att's bus to arrive. walked to tutor's crib. he was there!! *melts2* hehe.. then comment again about us wearing the same colour shirt. aiyoo!! then shahirah came, and... she also use pwink! hehex..

then end of tuition,walked to interchange. same people. same place. same route. hehee.. but shahirah wasnt with us last night. she met up with her friends. as usual ask syaf fer cigarettes. *shahirah2* hehe.. then zaini went off first, if not with lynn. but he took 359 so lynn had to go home alone.. right after zaini left,me & syaf left. so yeah, lynn also make her move. will be going home with him after every tuition. tu pun kalau samer timing.

then around midnight, dad fetch me and iz to Changi Hospital. gawd!! hafta go fer appointment. but not same day as iz. boring uhh. hehe.. so yeah,reached home around 2. thats about all lah.. hehe.. k lah people. gota go now.. wanna bath.. see ya around.. muacks!!

[ u're mine & i'm urs ] hehexx!!

panda eyes!!

2005-04-24T09:42:00.000-07:00

Morning everyone!
...
argh!!! soon i'm gonna have panda eyes! ahh!!
help help!! >.<
i practically stayed up the whole night waiting for his message.
but guess what?! he never message me at all!!
i said i'll be waiting and i did wait. and he dint message me.
*sobs!*sobs*
gawd! called her that night.she was on the phone with my cousin.
great.talked till early morning then left me waiting huh!? hahah..
nevermind.in the end we talked at 5 in the morning. 5.30 we put the phone down.
she went to sleep. and i was still waiting.
argh! at least reply my message dear. it was 4 when i message you.
isnt that like way pass my bedtime. and you dint even cared asking why im still awake.
boohoo!!

alah.. i miss him alot lah. i'm sure he's alright. take care bee! =)

how compatible are we?

2005-04-24T03:15:00.000-07:00

[[ hmm,this is how compatible i will be with him. ]]

Pisces & Sagittarius

When Sagittarius and Pisces join together in a love match, a relationship of realized dreams is formed. Sagittarius is more of a thinker and philosophizer, easily drifting around from one pursuit to the next. Pisces is more inward, involved in the shifting of their own mindscape. They are opposites in some respects, and to outsiders may seem an unlikely pair. But as their love for one another grows, they are more likely to be able to satisfy the philosophical cravings of the other and maintain a healthy relationship.

Sagittarius is outgoing and versatile, and in a relationship with Pisces often comes to the defense of their gentler partner. Pisces, in turn, gives Sagittarius subtle understanding and a place to escape from their tireless endeavors. Pisces is a Sign that, like Water, adapts easily to its surroundings; Pisces tends to focus much energy on understanding and sympathizing with their partner. They are often more patient with Sagittarius's aloofness than other Signs. Sagittarius's active pursuit of knowledge combines with Pisces's gentle compassion towards others to give both partners a self-awareness that doesn't pass into egocentricity and isn't overly accommodating, such as Pisces alone may be.

Sagittarius and Pisces are both ruled by the Planet Jupiter. Pisces is also ruled by Neptune. Jupiter brings exploration and outreach to both Signs. Pisces is concerned with this aspect in an abstract sense; they often find themselves trying to save the world (perhaps in the form of recycling or environmentalism). Sagittarius, on the other hand, prefers to broaden their horizons through academics. Neptune is about big pictures, ideas and illusions; but it's also involved with disillusion and fantasy. Sagittarius can help Pisces plant its feet on the ground. Jupiter works through Pisces to put a gentler touch on Sagittarius's occasional hotheaded outbursts.

Sagittarius is a Fire Sign and Pisces is a Water Sign. These two elements can form a great couple if they give in a little, using innate understanding of situations and people to get matters resolved. Pisces can offer Sagittarius direction and help them learn to be gentler, while Sagittarius teaches Pisces to go out and explore the world. This couple will enjoy traveling together. Pisces can be emotionally draining for the Archer at times, too much Water dampening Sagittarius's fiery spirit. Conversely, too much Fire can boil the Water and leave Pisces steaming. Sagittarius and Pisces must use their perceptive skills to enhance the relationship, always focusing on what the other needs.

Sagittarius and Pisces are both Mutable Signs. Neither partner feels a need to dominate the relationship. They enjoy equality and like to see their ideas come to fruition. Pisces gets great happiness from helping Sagittarius. Sagittarius and Pisces enjoy dreaming up ideas and putting them into action. No one is preoccupied with end results; for this couple, the fun is in the journey! A lack of conflict over roles helps Sagittarius and Pisces work toward the same goals with great success.

What's the best aspect of the Sagittarius-Pisces relationship? It's that they can benefit from one another's wisdom and at the same time get along so well together. Pisces shows Sagittarius how to empathize and care; Sagittarius teaches Pisces how to turn fantasy into reality! The ability of each to provide what the other lacks makes theirs a truly reciprocal relationship.

powerful.butterflying feelings.

2005-04-24T03:04:00.000-07:00

whee!! erm,i know that this blog is updated way so early in the morning. simply because i'm waiting for eye candy to message me.I am so not gonna sleep cause i promised him i'm gonna wait for his message.but hey,my hp's not beeping. argh... hope you are fine dear. its been two days & i'm missing you already. oh well,i shall just wait then.

hmm,about how my saturday was spent. here goes. firstly,name me all the happy words that you can find in the dictionary,that is how i felt on that saturday. well,was out to bugis first.went walk-arounds.window shopping.saw this saw that. butterfliess here and there.silverings,diamonds everywhere.hahaha.. basically,i'm obsessed with all that.

around two.my long lost friend called. asked me to meet her.then go orchard to study there.if you guys are wondering where would we be studying. it will be in the library there. yearps. so yeah,met her at bugis. made our way to the train. then in the train, not surprised,it was really packed! hmm,dint care actually. so yeah,we were talking talking.then at Somerset. fuhh!! lotsa people were tryna get on the train. then,something so amazingly happened...

this guy in front of me,his elbow accidentally touch my boobs. and he even got the cheeks to tell his friend beside him,"whoa! that was nice baby.hot!" like *toot*! wth! what was he tryna imply huh!?! so yeah,cunt blame him though. it was really full!! then at orchard,we went walkarounds too.had ice cream. nice. the man there was nice too.i was like,"excuse me.can i have my ice cream please." haha.. my friend next to me was already laughing non stop. haha.. she said that was the first time she heard me saying that to an ice cream man. haha. ok. cool. just great. hahah!!

after that,we went into masjid sultan.had our prayers there. *ehem!* we're not that religious but we do pray.so yeah,understand us. ahaks! after that we went to Mrs F. get two muffins.one each.chocolate chips! whoo!! and we got one free. haha. great! so we took the white chocolate macadamia. nice! delicious! and another great thing happened!!

we were crossing across the road.and in the center,we bumped into this HOT man! and i mean HOT! though he had his clothes on,he dint button it up. so yeah,we saw his 6 PACS!!!!! and my friends know me so well. i'll definitely melt whenever i see guys with 6 pacs. cause they look so HOT! great babe!!

then after that we went studying.cool man! ahaks.. just a day and so many memorable things happened in just a day. so yeah,messaged eye candy when i was on the way home. he said he'll be going out. that was why i am like,not asleep. cause i told him to message me when he's on his way home.and i mentioned that "I'll be waiting for you dear..." and yeah,so if u're asking why i'm still awake. basically,i'm waiting for him. so yeah,miss him alot! hopefully he's ok. take care eye candy!!

*+*+ i'm so in love with eye candy!! +*+* (",) lurve kyrr. -hugs & kisses-

blastful day!

2005-04-20T23:13:00.000-07:00

yeah! a great day indeed. firstly,during P.E,we had to do our 5 stations. so far,all was GOOD! and i mean GOOD! i got almost all of it A except for sit & reach, just another cm and i'll get an A. my 2.4 run. shessh! last station to go is the incline pull ups. gotta get above 18 babe to get an A!! fuhh!!

then right,something happened that made me smile throughout the day. and yeah,i saw eye candy outside general office. i was told to get the class list,so i had to run down and grab it.then on the way out of the general office,chatted with him for awhile. cause after that mr sin called him. geez. i wonder what happen. hehe..

att gave me an apology letter. and yeah att, i forgive you already. =)

after school,went straight to the music room and put my blazer & uniform there. then planned to stay around in the canteen with eye candy and his friends. but then,thought it over, i wont wanna bring my bag along during band. so yeah,walked out of school with jayn. then i came back to school around 2.55 liddat. thought eye candy was still in school,but nopes. haix!

instead,saw nadia low and gang at the table near fatimah's area.messaged eye candy too.was bored.so chatted with gui fang. nice girl. told me lots about eye candy. hehe.. *winks!* then after the whole band ended,messaged eye candy asked where he was. and guess what!!! he was at whitesands. so yeah,i had to go there too. gotta get for aloysious his file. then after that i met up with eye candy and his friends in the library.its really cool! i love today. cant stop thinking about it. hehe..

they had dinner.i supposed eye candy wanted to eat too,but he dint cause i wasnt eating. i suppose only lah.then,nadia low came. and darns! now she knows it already. hehe.. owell,i aint care. cause i know i love eye candy already. about hus,nah,we're just gonna stick as friends. forever. so yeah,left white sands around 7.15 liddat.. walked out with them to the taxi stand. they're taking the cab home. and me? well,had to take the bus instead lah.. hehe.. i aint mind. nono.not at all.. hee..

so yah,i've got back home.bathed.studied.and still studying.just taking a short break tryna update you. hehe.. will be messaging him later.before i go to bed.have to message him lah.i promise already. muacks!

so yeah,i've got to go now. and i believe this blog is already well updated. so yeah, have a blastful night everyone! misses eye candy. lurve kyrr.. =)

alamak... haywire sak sumer...

2005-04-19T18:50:00.000-07:00

okay.i'm back bloggin' again.i've done all my homeworks already. only emaths. some questions i donch know. well,sometimes i just wonder. some friends should know how it feels to be emotionally hurt.verbally too. but hey,for some things, you gotta think it through.

just like what ghal said.
"if ever you don't like somthing about your friends,never ask them to chenge. just tell them your mistakes.or weak points."
and so, i followed it. i did ask my friends to change.but that was before i got to know this philosophy. no doubt i do know that people dont like part of me. either the way i act to them. or whatsoever.

but hey, if you people are mad at me or hate me for being too friendly to people around our school. im sorry. but that's already me. the sec 5's and maybe 4's knows me cause they know ghalid. and they went like,"hey,u're ghalid's cousin right..." so, yah. i had to admit. that was what made the bonds closer.

but if you guys are mad at me cause i keep changing friends,dont blame me for doing so. i dont change friends for no reason. and did you people bother to ask me WHY i change my friends? besides, were you people there when i needed you all? did all of you bothered to ask me if i'm ok or not? did you people even consider tryna help me out?

i told mr lim cause i had NO ONE to talk too. i fought with lynn that time. and there was no one else close to me that i could talk to. i dint tell mr lim cause i wanted revenge. i told mr lim cause i need help and advices to clear these misunderstandings and all. if that was also wrong of me to do so... then who am i suppose to talk to about all this??? think about it.

i cant ask alisah nor lynn nor syafiq.they might know whats happening but will they know who to side? you have already told them all the bad stuffs about me. about me having to be so close to teachers. about me tryna change my friends. but did you actually ask me WHY i did all that for?? i'm a human being too ok. all of us have feelings. be it if you are jealous or not, u know me much more. but why must you listen to your own ego. if you believe in yourself that it was not true. its good. cause you can always come to me and ask me.but did you do so?

we might be in a cold war.but hey,you really gotta let me think about it. cause i aint know what to believe now. no doubt i still want us to be friends. but you've hurt me real deep. and if i did hurt you too, i'm sorry.i'm just confuse cause its like you aint got the trust in me AT ALL. i've tried my very best to change.and i did.and about friends.i might have left amirah,raudhah,raziana,fatimah & tarmizi. but do you know that it hurts so much to just go back to them.eventhough they already said that they forgive me,it is still very hard for me to just get back in there with them.i have to gain their trust back.and its gonna take me quite a long time.and because now you've already say it to him,its gonna take me another year to forget about it.and each time anybody talk about money,my mind will be with hallucinations. and you know how it feels to have hallucinations??

goodbye people. lurve kyrr. miss eye candy. *tears*

man! i miss him alot!

2005-04-19T15:08:00.000-07:00

hmm,i just got back from school.school was ok.messaged eye-candy in the morning. *sobs2* eye candy down with cold & fever. miss you alot! take care! so yeah,recess sat with them.talk-talk to them.then syafiq came.asked me if everythings ok with her anot.. well,i shall talk about that later.

everything went perfectly fine today.nothing bothered me though. emaths test was ok.was able to do it.besides,i was prepared.lifeskills rawks!continued to watch last two weeks movie.not sure about the title.and although i've watch it last week & cried.i've known the story already,so i was thinking that i might not burst out into tears. but hey, *hehe* i did! nic saw. *shy!*

after school,walked to the bus stop with dan & azrul.bought them ice-creams.small kids right? hehe. so yeah,talk talk to them.then husaini & gang came out.*shessh!* dint face them though.haha.in the bus met with azmy.long time no see. he's off to bishan.and now im safely back at home updating yoU! hehe.

hmm,counting the days.its already two days never talk to her. who? att. why? here goes. firstly, i got to know that she answered sufri's question that he asked alisah.then,on the net,she chatted with my cousin,ghalid.ghal asked again what exactly happen.here's the conversation aight.

her: syak stole my ex from me.
me: ( siak! since when? i was bloody helping u! )
him: but is it true? did she stole him away from u? is she n him together?
her: but she talked to him (zan) very long.until 2 in the morning.
...... shall not continue......

siak uhh.. if att's jealous cause i talked to him that long. fine i understand. but hey,she knows so well that i like or should i say love someone else already.and is from our school.i was helping her get back with zan.persuading zan to go back with her.but what did she do to me? she tell her friends that i am with him and tell my own cousin that i stole him away from her.

who was the one that asked me for help to patch up with him? who was the one who asked me to keep his number? and also she said to ghal, "i will never accept her as my friend anymore!!!!"

wow! then whats with this email you send me?
"syak, you wouldn't want to take my calls, so this is the only way.
and, there's no way i can talk to you in school cause i'm influenced.

i regret.
i never start to regret today but last night.
i even regreted before he called you last night to tell you all that.
when i called you last night, you said you were asleep, i didn't want to disturb you.
i decided to tell you in school.
but instead, the influence in school was there.
again.
i hope you know what i mean.
ok.
aku sumpah, yang sebenarnyer aku anggap kau macam kawan rapat aku dulu, syireen.
NoBODY KNOWS ABOUT THIS.
only hafizah got to know about it just now.
aku pikir2 balik, i think i know why i said all that to him.
it was all just influence.
from people.
you were a really a great friend.
but now, since i did something really bad to you, just because of influence, you don't deserve a friend like me.
and i don't deserve a great friend like you.
jangan risau lagi.
aku tak kan ganggu hidup kau lagi.
dalam class pretend aku dah mati.
and i don't exist in the whole world anymore.

and even that you never had met me before.
that's all that i want to say.
as about syerzan, i know he hates me too.
nevermind about him but i lost my second thing i treasure now, which is you.
good luck in your life my friend.
goodbye.

[[-- aku sumpah yang semuer aku tulis disini datang dari aku. kalau aku ader bohong sepatah pun, something really bad is going to happen to me, like death --]]

ghal said att was tryna be two-faced.and i think so too.she's influencing people to hate me so much. but once they get to know everything,they gonna hate her more than they hate me.and so what if you apologised to me? it was very insincere.you pushed the table,then you said," ok uh fine uh! my fault uh! sorry uh!" who on this earth wanna accept that kind of apology.

and on friday,irp rehearsal.i talked to mr lim and what did you say to lisa? "nampaksa dia bilang mr lim sak pasal kitarang..." and alisah corrected her," kau uh bukan aku."in the first place,is it wrong for me to talk to mr lim??? and just now she told lisa that she forgot about everything already. wow! im so impressed. but is it easy for me to forget it?! she told zan about what happen in sec 1 and it took me one whole year to forget about it!!! she told her friends that i was with zan. she told ghal i stole her ex..

eyy,i wont even bother to want zan to be mine uh.. i love someone else and you know it too... and besides at your blog, ur death's.. `backstabbers.. well, guess what.. it simply means you hate your own self! cause i aint no backstabber no more. i dont say bad things about you to zan. i was helping you like hell!!! think lah att!!!

------------------------end!-----------------------------

phew.its over.dont wanna say anything else about it anymore.for now. well,i've got to get going already. need to study fer additional mathematics test on thursday. hehe.. revise my work all.plus homework.. alot! haha..

k then,thats all. buhbyes.bubbles. (",)

missing eye-candy loads! muacks! =)

haix...

2005-04-15T19:19:00.000-07:00

fought with att...
she just dont appreciate what i've done for her all this while.
she makes it seems as though everything's ok.
what sia...

it was a big misunderstanding.
she thought i was with her lover.
hey att..u noe urself that i love someone else so much rite.
why dint you just ask me to confirm with me.
and before i know anything,you told people already.
what the heck.
after all this while,
you back stabbed me.
bad-mouthing me.why?
cause you dint want your lover to fall for me.
dont worry lah. i will never fall for him cause i love someone else.
besides,he's yours!!!!

you told him lotsa things.
and you know what?
it hurt me too deep.
no doubt i can forgive you.
but i will never forget.
all the advices i gave when you were with nazrin,
you dint wanna listen.
instead,you got angry at me.
what the hell for?
i was helping you out.

and you know what,
you never realised how much ive been trying to help you.
putting aside my study time just to help you out.
suffered.argued with my mum.
and is this what i get in return?
i seriously dont deserve this.
and the way you apologise.
it was so insincere.
if you wanna say sorry.
say it properly...

and what else are you trying to imply to sufri and ariff?
hate me so much right.
dont appreciate me at all right.
and like real im your GREAT FRIEND.
you dont even know what a friend means.
and when sufri asked lisa if she like my characteristic and overall.
you answered for you.
and do you realised that you just putting words into her mouth?
she dont hate me at all.
besides,its not you that was influence..
it was you who influenced your friends.

you hated lisa in sec 1.
right?
and now,admit it you hate me.
all those words you said...
the emails.
i aint gonna believe.
cause you are just lying to yourself not me.
i aint losing no nothing.
now that i noe,you are just a pretender.
someone who pretends to be friends with me.
whereby she doesnt.

want me so much not to talk to you right
ok.ill do it then.
goodbye att...

everything happen so fast...

2005-04-08T10:35:00.000-07:00

wow.its been several days i havent been updating you.
ok.since now im here.
and bored.i shall update...

"everything happen just so fast"
JG broken up already.reason cause?
i dunno why exactly.G's crazy.
i dun think i know him anymore.
he seems to care about friends than families first.
its hurts J too deeply.but fret' not.
im always there fer J too.

NA broke up too.reason cause?
his ex-gf contacted him back.
and it obvious that he still loves her.
the way he reacted.the way he treats A.
gees.and he even got the cheek to call her BITCH.
what are you then?
one hell of a liar.
you dont even deserve her in the first place.
so what if you're much older than we are.
at least respect her!!
so immature.

"People dont meet by chance,but by fate..."
i got to know someone new.
J's cousin.
he's totally sweet.
he cares about me.
though we are just friends.
we can never be too sure,
for we may be more than friends in the future.
no doubt,i like him.
in fact i like everyone.
as in,they're my friends and i care fer them.
i love him!i love everyone!

"friends come and go..."
it hurts me too deeply.
when a friend of mine left me.
for a reason? i dont know.
it seems like he's afraid to lose that friend of him.
thats why he left me instead.
i just wonder.havent i been a very good friend?
i care for everyone.be it girls.be it boys.
i care for them.
respect me and i'll respect you.
in this case,i've always respected you but have you been respecting me,stranger?
maybe you did,but did you actually know how many times you've stab my heart?
i may seem happy,but do you think i am? think about it...

"life really has to go.."
despite of what happened.
and which happened so very fast.
my life has to move on...
i cant stand stranded on a island,
thinking that everything will end soon.
i'v got to move on in order to end everything.
now that you know i was missing,
you came searching for me.
was it because you miss my presence as a friend?
or was it because you were sorry fer hurting me?

[ glamourous. inner beauty. fragile ]
(",* lurve kyrr...

commendation day was a blast!

2005-04-03T16:20:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey...guess what people! i had a very wonderful time yesterday.
well,Commendation Day lah what else.
haha. went to school like around 2.30..
early right? had band practice first before the commendation day starts.
since SYF is like 2 weeks from now. 14 april 05.
went to school with hafizah.she's still sick though.
band practice played the two songs. as per normal.
then when the commendation day was about to start.
something quite terrible happened to me.
i cried.and i mean i really cried!
i shant mention it here.those who knows shall keep it low.

bla bla bla.carried the drumset over to the back stage.
prepared for the performance and all.
when it starts,i saw my brother and halima.
was shocked though. but it did not distract me.
thats great.i dint cock up either.
supposingly,my cousin and nas shud come.
but they dint turn up.
ghal came later. after my performance.
great thing was another cousin of mine who i fantasise ALOT came.
rayyan.handsome to the max.but too bad he's just a cousin on mine.
to be with him? dream on kyrr.he's ur own cousin.haha

after it all ends,went to eat with att & the rest.
met my girlfriend up.lynn.hehe.
talk to her about her him and all.
bla bla bla.took pics herre and there.
then,went out of school to meet my cousins,azim,bob & syahrul.

bob was feeling rather low.talked to him alone after getting myself a drink with azim & syahrul.then,talk things over with bob.made him feel happy.
which i did! whee!
very glad to have hear his voice.hehex.
asyik termenung jerr.hehe...
before that,talked to azim about stuffs.
it helped me quite a bit.
but soon after talking to bob.
everything was fine. =)

so,yah,we lepak2 pat bawah blk.
which they called it "sejarah"...
went home like around 11.15 liddat.
reached home almost midnight.
bathed,online,conference,talked to ghal.slept.
so yah,i had a very wonderful time indeed.
waiting for the next night to spend with eu.

" saat ku merindukan diri mu... " 020405

(",* lurve kyrr.hugs & kisses.

whee!!

2005-03-29T22:12:00.000-08:00

wow whee.a wonderful day spent indeed.aint know why.but i just love it.haha.
lessons were great.dint study anything fer malay.cikgu gave us free lesson.wohoo!!
then during that lesson i did my additional mathematics homework.
now im left with E maths.. eee!! hahakx.
just dunno why i hate E maths but love Add maths more!!! wahaha...

bio was ok too.had this so called test paper.ahaks!
can bring home somemore you know the paper.stale eyy..
hahaks!pure chemistry was also a total fun!! whee!!!
never ever thought that it could be this great.
as in its much more greater than the previous2 lessons.
oh well,to sum it all,pure chemistry rawks! *winks!*

after school went home straight though.changed into mah band tee.
ate my lunch at home.went back to school.parade.concert.
tiring!! had to run up and down.music room to classroom.
wah! die die.hehe. *confirm!* wahaha...
was very very fun indeed.
lots of people took a break.in a sense that they dropped down.
due to the heat and all that.heard that fahmy went unconcious.
oh well,pity them all...

att had quite a bad day though.aint know why exactly.
cheer up att! =)
g went jogging just now.eww!he stink! hahaha...
joking joking.

k lahs.i got to go now.wanna message him.but im too scared.
message meeh first H.i miss you.all u need to do is just contact her back.
she hate being left alone.hate being treated like a stranger.
hate the silence in between.you know her better now right.
message her please.she may seem happy always.but hey,try asking if she is.

buhbyes.bubbles fer now.muacks!
(",* lurve kyrr.lurve him.

heyx.

2005-03-27T23:39:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey... =) wow! am i like actually blogging? khekhekhe...
well,had a very wonderful day just now.went to bugis with JG.
searched for a nail polish.a black one.haha!!
went all the way to bugis just to get that.
aint that LAME.kwang3
ahaks!

mished hus alot! today reminded meeh of the day i went out with him though.
aww! mish u mish u mish u...
its a sunday.
it was raining.
had an mrt ride.
walk walk around.
eveything reminded me,
of the day i went out with him.

aww! help me people! i mish husaini.. hehe..

J went over to my place.G's mum was at my home too.
nanny too.basically,everyone was at home.my whole family.
send abg iz to the interchange.army.kwang3...
reached home at around 2130 liddat.
ahaks! the whole day i was out. hehehe..
thanks mum!! owe u one. khekhekhe.. =)

currently on the phone with farhan,azri and farhana.
conferencing.miss them alot.but not as much as i miss him.
ehehkss!! =) miss the laughters and all lahs. ahaks!
agus n irfan aint in it. ****!! ahaha..
okiesh.farhan asked me whats the song on the radio now.
well,my favourite actually.not really lah actually.
its Almost Here by Bryan McFadden.
my favourite is Going Crazy!!! woohoo!!

okiesh lah.i need to sleep now.goodnites people.
sweet dreams.sleep tights.
muacks!! =)

(",* lurve kyrr.lurve hus.

lovely day spent...

2005-03-22T21:04:00.000-08:00

heyx.school reopened already.kindda lurve it.back to studies.i'm almost always on books.been going out studying.non-stop.asked mummy fer the permission to use the comp.just to update my blog.check my mails.chat with some friends for a moment.

sort off pissed him off.really dint mean to.but yah,it was partially my fault.asked if i was forgiven.and he said,"im not asking for apology..just please remove the pic...its ok.." geez,that was really harsh.talked to kak jayn n abg ghal about it. abg g was really nice to meeh.dint expect so.hehe.called meeh his little cousin. and i mean LITTLE.was really touched though. thanks darlings.

got a testimonial from abg nas.thanks for it big bro.yups. i am a gurl who doesnt really shows out her true self.in a sense that she doesnt wanna show people that she is troubled.always faking to be happy when she aint at all.sometimes though.

went studying with lynn & farah. was fun.studied bio.went walk2.ate mac'd.studied there too.usual place.always.looked around for new specs.gotta get one,soon.tmr's commendation day rehearsal.will be back at night.hopefully wont get so much homework.gotta study for physics test this thursday after school.wish meeh luck.

* miss him loads.shudnt have put it on display.regretted.hope things are still normal between us.hate the silence in between. *

lurve kyrr (",*

my place!

2005-03-18T00:08:00.000-08:00

heyx,missing euu all...
missing him...

what a relief.he's online.at last.but guess what.we aint talking.sheesh. *sad* why arent we talking? did i do something wrong again? c'mon ppl, tell meeh!!

hate living in a world of ignorance.he's aint one of it.but,euu know, i really feel like crying.i mean like,"there's millions of hearts in my BIG heart all for him".but does he care? does he know that i actually love him.like wow.please,i doubt i did anything wrong.confusions arised in meeh.

pride myself on being the other women. if there is in the first place. yet the clock is ticking and i'm still holding on to him.still loves H and always.i cross my heart its a promise i shall never break within myself. gimme a chance.gimme the precious moments of my life being with euu.for as long as possible.lemme have the chance to love euu.

make another slow jams.this time make it sweet.on a slow jam for my baby and for meeh.

how i wish i was given the chance to love him.being together with him...

...
till then,nitesx
(",* lurve kyrr... 0201

wow...

2005-03-13T18:55:00.000-08:00

heyx. kyrr's back again. sowie once again for not updating my blog that often anymore. anyways, since now the holidays, i suppose i should try and update it once a while.. hehex..

well,life's alright.never been better.hehe..Been messaging him quite often again. ilurve it..!! hehex.. ya, mish him shio dearly seyy. how i wish i could go out with him this holidays or in the days to come. but too bad lah, my holidays all planned up. shall mention it later aights?

i mish euu.i mish euu.i mish euu.i mish euu.i mish euu.i mish euu.i mish euu.

yah.i mish husaini to the core!! woots.. haha.. seriously man. its impossible to believe it.but guess what.. i lurve him to the core!!! aint lying babe. hahakx. no one was able to let meeh love another soul.its shio not impossible!! haha.. and yups,i lurve myself for loving him this much..this lots.. hehekx..

anyways, i got back my report book already.. kindda disappointing lah. but i can still accept it.. hehex.. well,failed only 3! haha.. only 3.. but hey, i promise i'll do better for my mid-year exams. gotta babe.. if not, woohoo!! i'll be dead!! hahakx.. gotta try and survive without a tutor. which i think its possible.. yeah. hehe.. =) smiles!

well then,in any case.. i still gotta work ten times more in order to make myself in JC. haix. gotta try gotta try. hehe.. okiesh then.. i gtg now.. i try and update it when im free.. besides, here's the plan for the whole week of mine..

Saturday [12.03.05] english comprehensions,REP,book review...
Sunday [13.03.05] malay composition...
Monday [14.03.05] additional mathematics: 150 questions
Tuesday [15.03.05] e-mathematics: TYS page 13 question no. (13 - 86) & pg 14 no. 1-9
Wednesday [16.03.05] physics worksheet on light.revisions for test.
Thursday [17.03.05] pure chemistry tb pg 84. qns 1,2 & 3
Friday [18.03.05] revisions for biology test.
Saturday [19.03.05] social studies and history.
Sunday [20.03.05] get ready for school on monday!! haha.

well, thats it people. and im done with the first two.. woohoo.. got 4 more hws to do.. yupsyups. well, c ya arnd. =)

[`_+ kyrr lurve hus forever +_`] 0201 *smiles* muacks!

i mish euu!!

2005-03-06T13:23:00.000-08:00

heyx. sowie long tyme dint blog. was busy with my studies and all that.
anyways, i've got a little confession to make.

I STILL LURVE HUSAINI!!!

i tried finding fer someone new, but i just couldnt fergot abt euu, i still lurve euu husaini!!

life's getting tougher each time he dint call meeh.. i mish his walk, his way of talk. baby please come back to meeh. why cant eu understand everything that i'm offering? shucks. i mish euu lots!!

i really tried to find someone new. but i just couldnt forget abt euu.. though i know i did say, lets be friends. i was hoping that we could come closer to understand one another more. but it makes no difference cause euu havent been calling meeh. message me not. sheesh. i mish euu dearly!!

.......

I used to pride myself on being the other woman
But now it's flipped and I don't want u with no other woman
Why can't euu understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world but you just wanted arguing
From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped u off again
Even flipped out on me at the mall again
"it's all her fault again" that's what euu telling all ya friends
I aint pointing fingers ma, I just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know then times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got a little message for ya
Anything she can do, boy I can do it better for ya, cause

When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Baby where u been
Feels like a long time, long, long time since I seen ya
Yes it has boy, when I know I said some fucked up things to u before
But boy u know I didn't mean it
(I didn't mean one single word)
(I never meant one single word)
If I could take back every word I would and more fo sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convenient for me...

.......

I MISH EUU HUSAINI!! I STILL LURVE EUU!! 0201 was the day that brought us together. =)
kyrr...

i lurve euu!!

2005-02-27T22:59:00.000-08:00

heyyx!!
So boy, tell meeh is there something I can do to see euu
Maybe euu can make a lil time for meeh to meet euu
I just gotta tell euu what I'm goin' through
Gotta let euu know I still love euu
Theres so many things I wanna share with euu
So much is there to make meeh miss euu
For what its worth boy
I swear its truth
Boy I wanna let euu know
I STILL LURVE EUU!!!!!

specially for the person whom i lurve so very much!
good nights people. sweet dreams. sleep tights.
Muax! =)

hush..silent tears..

2005-02-27T01:31:00.000-08:00

heyx...
went to the choir concert last night at Victoria Concert Hall.met maisurah and hafizah at 6.15,Pasir Ris Interchange. arrived late.. hehe.. opps. sowiee people! *winks* took the train down to Raffles. went mac's, grab a cuppa drink. felt so dehydrated so suddenly. mai was very sweet. met up with Izudin and the rest at the staircase near the entrance. i think total was arnd 10 people including meeh,maisurah and hafizah. took pictures with them. there's one picture that i lurve so much. it was nice. very nice! hehehe..concert ended at around 10.15. reached Esplanade at 10.45pm. the rest i wont say about it. sowiee people.. 25.02.05 will be the most memorable day ever no matter what. be it good or bad.

arrived home at 9 in the morning.. very sleepy right now.. kak huda smsed meeh.. was really shocked though.. hehex.. but was kindda fun messaging her.. hehe.. went to [- nelly's -] crib.. then to tampines mall.. met up with arie and hirwandie.. get NeLlY's soccer boots at sportslink.. good thing got his size.. ahaha. if not... went to white sands alone.. grab some empty discs.. i'm so dead tired seyy.. slept for only an hour or two.. haixx.. okieshh then.. i better end herre.. need LOTS of sleep.. hehex. good nights sweet dreams sleep tight people.. (",)

[[ meeh and euu was meant to be as one now ]]i still lurve euu...

i mish euu

2005-02-24T20:01:00.000-08:00

heyy...
syakirah's missing euu so much. do message her again. or better still call her. she's been messaging euu and euu dint even wanna reply. how harsh could euu be? dont leave her in the darkness. although euu're under budget. a simple wish could have made her day. haix... though it was a decision made hastily, euu still dont have to ignore her. sheesh. message her. call her. wish her. she's aint angry at euu at all. besides, she's waiting for euu're call. euu're smses. she doesnt even hate euu. she misses euu lots. like duh. she's just not feeling well as in having fever. she wasnt even angry at all about what happen. just try and call her or sms her alrights. she doesnt want to lose a special friend like euu. okieshh?

people...
school was perfectly alright. brought a very small bag today. my red checked sling bag. those who saw it knows it. ahaks. had two tests. E and A maths. E maths was alright except for question 4B. sheesh! A maths? *darns* dont even mention about it. it was freaking difficult!!! shoots man!! ahakx. its for sure i'm gonna fail. But heyx, aint gonna give up! haha. still gotta work hard for it. was cracking my head doing that test.it was very difficult!! sheesh. haha.

well then, aint much to update. so yeah,will be updating again tonight. =)
[`_+ syakirah +_`] amor no es amor. i miss euu!

Happy Birthday!!

2005-02-23T23:33:00.000-08:00

Hmm..
Happy birthday to euu..
Happy birthday to euu..
Happy birthday to Syakirah..
Happy birthday to euu..
Well, a year older now kyrr.. Fabulous 5teen.. Yeah! IC on my way.. Ahaks..

School was alright. Dad fetch me to school. Lots of people wished me. Felt so honoured. Had a malay drama thingy after school in the hall. Was really fantastic. Cool I shall say.. Real cool. Ehekx. Then, had to go for band after that. Mr Tan, a teacher from else-where, came down to some-sort "conduct" us. Heard his stuffs for only 15 minutes. Great! Haha.. Had break at around 4.30. Went through Singapore Rhapsody and Folklore For Band. Was really cool. Mr Tan said we improved. *Ehem* Isit? Haha. Shall take that as only a compliment. Wahaha.

A birthday spent all alone. Mum and Dad worked. Abg farhan aint coming home from camp. Abg fa'iz, was not even at home the day before my birthday. Hmph! So yeah, basically, I spent everything alone today. Its real sad ok. Adzhar dint even wished me. *tears* Thought H forgotten. But he hadnt. Good thing. NadiaLow wished me too. Shio cool. I'm so glad that people around meeh hasnt forgotten my birthday. Thanks alot people. Well, currently busy doing my homework. Tons of it. Have to study for E and A maths tests tomorrow. Haix. Sickening.

Good nights people. Sweet dreams. Sleep tight.
[`_+ syakirah +_`] amor no es amor. what am i feeling? what am i doing wrong?
23 February 2005...

yahoo!!

2005-02-22T23:53:00.000-08:00

well, school was perfectly alright.. Lisa dint came to school, so i was with att the whole day... As in, during lessons.. Had two practicals.. Shio fun!! Both biology and pure chemistry.. Biology had practical.. Aint know how to say it here.. But yah, we had practical.. It was kindda boring but no doubt, it made us waste time.. Thats the best part.. Wahaha..!!

Pure Chemistry we did practical too.. About titration.. Wahaha.. Bests!! Learned how to wash the Burette and Pipette.. Wahaha.. Best! But kindda sickening lah.. Cause its so difficult to pour in the wated from the pipe into both the burette and pipette.. Wahaha.. But it was successfully done.. (",)

Then we had to titrate this chemical P and Q.. alah.. its such a long story lah.. but its shio cool.. wahahaha!! So, half way thru as mr ridzuan was teaching, SUDDENLY got this Lion Dance thingy going on outside the General Office.. And it was really loud that we could barely hear mr ridzuan talk.. kesian dia.. hehex.. =) * oh please * hehe...

So yah, my practical was a success!! whee!! haha.. i had successfully turned the screened methyl orange to grey.. whee!! shio cool!! i wanna do summore!! wahaha.. should actually have at least 3 periods of pure chemistry whenever we do practicals.. it will be more fun.. haha..

so,had assembly too just now.. Lion Dance and *erm* chinese opera.. * bah * For once actually, i watched the Chinese Opera.. Haha.. The last time we had this fer assembly, i slept!! wahahah!! boring lah this Chinese Opera thingy.. Firstly, its boring.. there's nothing fun about it.. But the LION DANCE was the best!! woohoo!!! ahaha.. i just love the lion's ears!! wahah.. shio cute.. att knows what i'm talking about.. haha... then hanis start to disturb me.. walau!! i wasnt scared about the lion ok! hehe.. ok fine.. i was.. A BIT only.. hehe... but its shioo cute..!!! haha...

ok2.. went home straight after that.. cleaned the house up.. went to G's crib, grab some food.. brought it home.. went out straight to White Sands.. Met lynn and farah up at Mac's.. Studied.. Yah!! We studied.. hehe.. Laughed a lot too... wahaha.. Then made a move at around 6.15.. It was a fine day despite having this dry cough of mine.. haix..

So yah, currently conferencing with them.. It was quite sometime though.. So yah, i aint feeling sleepy at all.. Miss adzhar shio much!! Just hoped that he replies my msg.. wahaha.. missh euu missh euu!! hehex =)

anyways, the weather nowadays are so freaking humid!!
`_+ Mak i.. peh bahang.. +_` hehex.. * att!* hehe
yah, there's been so many bush-fires going around.. sheeshh.. kesian seyy.. *boohoo* k lah.. its really getting late.. good nights ppl.. =) kyrr

happy happy kyrr.. =)

whee.. the best day ever...

2005-02-20T15:00:00.000-08:00

yeah!! good noon everyone.. well, kyrr's lurveed.. hehee.. dont wanna mention more in here.. no good.. ahaks.. anyways, to that person.. i thank eu so very much... euu know why.. muacks!

hmm, to start it off, my day is alright.. messaged him early in the morning.. =) bathed, teevee, study.. well, its kindda boring though.. simply because i am not feeling well.. haixx.. help me somebody.. i've been sick since the last two days.. i thought i should be better by now.. but i suppose i was wrong.. i'm getting worst instead.. haix.. firstly it was cough, then fever then flu.. sheesh.. starting to lose my voice already.. haix.. help!! * boohoo*

havent been having the appetite to eat either.. cause i simply cant taste a thing.. sheeshh.. but still have to eat something to fill my stomach.. no good going around with an empty stomach.. well, might be going out later.. do my hws.. left a question or two only.. bio lahx.. haix.. so many homeworks.. p chem, physics, biology, malay, english.. haix.. stressed up seyy.. but nevermind, i've done it all, but still got a question or two i never do.. haix..

k lah people.. i need to rest.. if not later people will get worried.. hehe.. k.. muacks! buhbyex..

kyrr's lurveed...

haix..

2005-02-18T21:55:00.000-08:00

sorry people kyrr dint update for such a long time.. erm, kyrr wasnt feeling well... emotions got tangled up, AGAIN... well, i dont think i should mention it herre... but hey, to those who know it, just try to keep it in reticence.. alrights..? thank kiuw shio very much...

But i suppose the only people who knows whats actually going on right now is my dearest dearest darling, Janna.. Not to forget another two young juvenile,well-proportioned,charming,saccharine gentlemen.. and that is Arie and Ghalid.. [[ try not to be "kembang" atye guys.. khekhekhe ]]

Hmm,i'm shio confused about the life i'm living in now.. well,whatever obstacles i got to encounter,i'm going through it even if it means that i got to get hurt... well, there's this one thing that i want real bad.. that is the FRIENDSHIP i used to have with him..

[[`__HiM__`]] our friendship is the most valuable thing to me.. i aint feeling great about losing it at all.. all i want is us to have this friendship back up once again.. no matter how many times euu have hurt me, i'm willing to hold on to it.. basically is because of FRIENDSHIP.. without this friendship, i feel an emptyness in me.. so, i beg euu on my knees, bring back the friendship we used to have... life's at stake without a special friend like euu.. =) [-please-]

everyone, kyrr's a very strong ghurl.. she can undergo any kind of obstacles.. but one thing for sure, once she's hurt it will take a very long time for her to heal.. but when she's asking fot that special thing back.. she's trying to say that she's ok.. she just wants that friend of hers to cherish this wonderful friendship... =) bring the friendship back...

well people, kyrr gtg now.. need to call my long-lost friend.. hehex..! good nights everyone.. =)

i really pity my friend..

2005-02-13T21:27:00.000-08:00

gees..my friend just called sobbing on the phone..she asked me lots of question.. but then the first thing was like, "erm..i dunno anything my dear.." well, firstly she is still in dilemma.. since the beginning of the year.. she's totally head over heels about this guy...then,she said ever since they had a minor argument the other day, things werent going the same way like last time.. and its so obvious she hates it.. haixx..

whats more.. that person showed signs like not wanting to be with her at all.. then, the way he speaks to her is really different.. He dont even wanna treat her like last time as in not wanting to help her pull through.. i'm really feeling it.. help her please...

i cant help much.. im going through it too.. right now.. haix.. cheer up ghurl.. i know it hurts.. i'm going through it now...

haix.. gonna be dead..

2005-02-11T22:02:00.000-08:00

heyx.. school was perfectly alright.. nothing new happen.. got back my Physics test.. whee!! and i pass!! *muahh!!* ahaksx.. stayed back after school with att.. lisa got the MINDS thingy on after school... me and att dint know whutt to do so we just slack in the canteen.. met syireen and nad up too.. syireen needs to sell the tickets.. so helped her out.. she wants to sell it to Huda's group.. in a sense that she was in a group with her friends.. syireen was scared so i stood up and approached them..

was really shivering though.. "erm..any tickets fer any of euu..??" that was whutt i said.. wahaha.. but i said it with a smile right acroos my face okieshh.. hehexx.. was glad though that i had the courage to talk to huda.. as in ask her that question only.. then she was like, " wah.. panjang umur korang.. kita ader tertunggu-tunggu.." hehex.. then i laughed.. haha.. dunno lah why but i just feel that.. heyy, it isnt that bad though.. ahah.. euu might not know what i meant but nevermind.. haha..

so, after selling those tickets to them, took a stroll around the school.. was very very very bored.. me and att stayed back cause we want to watch the people rehearse their so called musician talents.. khekhekhe.. kidding2.. okiesh..? then after saiful's band ended.. we were so called kicked out of the hall.. like toot seyy.. so, we slacked down in the canteen... SUDDENLY!!

heard from naz that the bass drum got torn.. like what the TOOT!! darns.. i need that drums fer commendation dae.. and whats more worst, its for sure that i'm gonna get scolded by mrs chew.. shoots!!! called mai up asked her to come down.. she arrived.. all panicked.. cause its a one for all all for one thingy.. so, its for sure the whole band get punished.. haixx.. help!!

saw him played the bass.. he looked cute.. hehex.. aint joking.. but he really looked cutesssssss!!! hehex.. yah, why wouldnt i say that ryte.. im like so head over heels about him.. nadia low knew something.. and i really dunno how she knew it.. besides, what issit that she know seyy... hehe.. nah, lets just ferget about it.. haha..

will be giving him his valentine gifts this monday.. by hook or by crook i still gotta have the courage to give it to him.. hahakx.. support me people!! hehe.. okiesh lah.. i think i end here first.. wanna search fer a new skin.. hopefully.. ahaks.. and i'm so happy!! my homeworks are all done!! whee!! hehex.. kae kaess.. muackss!! love ya husaini.. =)

wow..wow.. look at the tyme..

2005-02-08T03:57:00.000-08:00

ehem.. well, its very very late right now.. its already 3.20AM!! Hahaks.. wondering why i aint asleep..?? hmm, simply because i cant make myself fall asleep.. though i had a very long day todae in school.. i still dont feel tired.. ahahx.. strange eyy..

hmm, school was alright.. seriously... was glad to have met him during recess.. as per normal, we dont sae a word.. ahakx.. * tears!* hehe.. then, homeworks given were quite alright.. not that much though.. cause i expected more as it was the holidays.. haha.. 3 days of no school...!!! whee!! hehex..

had band after school... but sadly, i dint bring my hp along with me today.. hahkx.. fer the first tyme ever.. 12 hrs away from home without a hp with me.. haha.. so i dint get to msg him or contact him... kindda sad though.. *boohoo* one of miss yip's friend came bringing along a new set of crash cymbals.. and wow! its really shiny!! wahaha.. and big too.. we thought that it cause like $100 plus like that.. but guess whutt.. it cost $500!!! hahax.. my eyes went popping seyy..hehe.. asked fer his help too.. since he was a very experienced percussionists, a member of the singapore chinese orchestra.. asked to tune the drums cause it really sounded so awful.. and if miss yip still doesnt like the sound of the drums, she will get us a piccollo drums.. cool eyy.. she seems to be very loaded!! wow!! ahahx..

then, band ended around almost 7.10 like that.. went to tampines mall with jonathan, niza,maisurah and maria.. changed our band-tee size fer tommorrow's performance.. and guess whutt.. XS is damn big fer me!! ahah.. so, we 4 went there to get it changed.. but guess whutt, we wanted to change 4 of the XS's to XXS.. but only 2 were left.. so the other stayed XS.. i and mai took the XXS.. khekhekhe!! =) went mac's with them too but not including maria.. mai blanja us.. Thank kiuks mai!! love ya.. hehx.. then left that place arnd 8.30 - 8.45.. took the train home with mai.. chit chatted with her.. funn!! hehex.. niza took 291 home.. jonathan went walk2.. hehx..

reached home around 9.10.. bathed and do my additional mathematics hw.. there was like 16 to 18 questions of Surds... And basically, one question's solution takes up at least 1 page of a foolscap.. haix!! running out of foolscap seyy me.. hahax..!! but nevermind...

wanted to give att a call since she doesnt know how to do the add maths hw.. but when i wanted to call, she messaged me telling me that she wants to go to sleep and copy tommorow instead in school.. hehx.. ape lah.. messaged alisah after that.. asked if she had any problem with add maths.. and its so obviously she does.. hehex.. so, helped her out with 6(h) and 7(a)(b).. then she said she's sleepy and she wont understand a thing if she carry on.. hehe.. so, she slept.. i continued doing my other homeworks.. since i cant even get to sleep.. so yeah, basically all my holiday homeworks are done..

homework check...
english workbook.. part A
e-maths ex 4A qn 1..
social studies worksheet.. chapter 2
add maths ex 3.1.. questions 6 and 7
pure chem worksheet.. last fridae's hw..
malay file updated..

yeah, so everything is done.. whee!! no homeworks fer me.. * winks!* well att and lisa, if you need my help just asked me lah.. you know how to contact me kan.. hehx. =) okiesh then..

messaged him too just now.. misses him soo much.. hehex.. (",) boy ( abg munshi ) currently at my crib.. chilling out with abg farhan.. playing PS2 lah.. typical.. hehex... boy's off to work later at 6.. and as for me.. i have to be in school by 6.30 liddat.. gotta let att copy my add maths.. den pass to faline.. or alisah.. den we're off to band.. haiz.. gotta perform seyy.. and its like, i have STAGE FRIGHT!! hehex.. i can never perform that well in front of a whole crowd.. i'll get very very scared. serious!! i know myself.. hehex.. to this extend only lah.. hehx.. wish me luck everyone!! hopefully i wont cause any mistakes.. hehex.. or rather i shud pretend nothing wrong has happen.. hehex.. =)

well, currently listening to MY PLACE!! hehex.. long time never listen to that song.. thanks to boy who brought his discman along.. now i can listen to all the cool hip songs he have!! whee!! thank kiuwx!!

Okiesh okiesh. i think i end herre lah.. its already 4 am.. hahakx.. and i think i wanna go watch some teevee shows.. if there is any.. hahakx.. =) alrights then.. c ya later everyone!! muacks!

Love ya.. mish ya.. always my number 1.. husaini!! muackss!! =)

What a chaotic day...

2005-02-04T01:27:00.000-08:00

hmm.. its been some time since ive updated.. sorry everyone.. i wasnt feeling that well.. there are reasons why but i think it isnt necessary fer me to mention about it here.. those who knows it, just keep it low atyes.. thankiuk shio much!! =)

well, its all parts and parcels of life.. i have to go through it no matter whutt.. but it isnt that fair to me tooh.. everyone has its special way of living or even loving that special someone.. now, its all jumbled up.. and i aint know if everything will be like whutt it was before.. its not as if he's different or something.. but, i just feel insecure without him around.. some life i have eyy.. haix.. but heyy, for everything that he confessed wont make me love him less.. exactly, its the feelings thats in you.. its YOU that control your way of life.. okok.. i better stop herre.. before i act up again..

alrights, school was perfectly OK.. yah, had physics test.. quite ok.. thanks to lynn who gave us some clues.. thanks lynn!! i really appreciate your kindness.. =) mishh ya ghurl.. hahakx.. and yerpx, had chinese new year rehearsal too just now.. it was very messy.. i'll tell ya why later.. band was the first item.. which i hate so very much.. we should be the last.. khekhekhex.. The mcs were tarmizi,asyraf and the twins.. a chinese twins.. not the malay.. hehex.. It was perfectly alright lah but when it comes to the part where band has to play.. i will sure get so very nervous... it kindda sucks playing that chinese new year song each and every year.. very boring.. haiz.. Nazri not playing the toms.. Saleh is.. and he is like one hell of a *toot*.. he dint even come for band just now.. but good thing that we only had the rehearsals and not band practice.. i'm kindda exhausted cause of band.. not been feeling that well.. help!!

Then after the rehearsals, band got punished.. gotta run around the parade square 5 times.. but instead it was 7.. haix... every round has it reasons.. like toot rtye.. we aint no military band.. we're just symphonics.. so why are we punished in such a wae..?? haizz.. besides, band should actually change.. in a sense like change to a better band.. cause we basically got no teamwork.. hate it so much.. and the ones that always get scolded are the percussionists and the tubas.. its so unfair.. that was why att was very angry.. so very angry..

And yah, the reason why gv was in a total chaos right.. heard rumours that there will be spot check of classes.. then everyone so scared run back to class took all their books back home.. stupid seyy.. as in like, u dont have to be so scared.. the teachers aint that stupid to throw away all your books.. they will just keep it in a room.. if u want it back claim it from the teachers lahh... haixx.. i shant mention anything about that now.. not that important.. hehexx.. ok lah.. its getting late already.. i wanna go to sleep.. nights everyone..

hus, good nights sweet dreams sleep tight.. love you shio much.. (",) muacks!

Lovely Sunday...

2005-01-30T20:44:00.000-08:00

Do you know whutt.. i just feel like today is the sundae that i spent with HiM on the 2nd january.. i dunno why..but i just feel it that way... hehex.. yerps2.. so, i woke up pretty early todae.. 0830 hrs.. had a refreshing bath then went online chatted with some friends for a moment.. then studied.. yah..!! and i mean Study!! Hahakx.. there was lots that i had to cover.. so, todae was like the perfect dae to end all of it.. hehe.. did all my homeworks earlier.. so, just have to do some revisions and study for the 5 upcoming tests that i will be having this coming week.. geex!! a lot seyy.. haix..

messaged him just now at arnd 1915.. after i was done with my revisions and all that.. and yah, no doubt.. I MISS HIM!!! =( he havent reply to my message yet..but hey, i still miss him.. hehex... ok, this is getting kindda crappy.. so yah, contacted syukor back.. through msn.. nothing great by the wae.. he is just a friend to me and nothing more... and i mean it.. NOTHING MORE THAN A FRIEND.. ahakx..tetap setia with HiM.. khekhekhe.. =D

was chatting with nasrul tooh through msn.. Geex. he's feeling pretty down but yet he dont wanna tell me.. must i ask first in order to know why he was feeling down... haix.. nvm lah..shant force him to tell me.. why shud i indulge in his problems right..? dumb me.. haixx..

having troubles with add maths hwx.. theres this qns that i really cunt solve.. and boy,it is that thinkable qns.. you gotta crack your head to get the answer.. till now i have not answered it yet.. believe just have to wait till tomorrow then.. ask mr lau fer help of course.. khakhakha.. e- maths is quite easy to do.. only two qns i left blank..but hey, i still know how to do it.. i'm totally prepared to do my Pure chem test but not bio.. and totally so prepared to do Hist and Phys.. hehex.. ss..?? erm erm erm. ok lah.. =D

alrightx then.. theres lots to sae.. but i guess i just stop herre lah.. i'm feeling sleepy already.. the whole day study only.. haix.. brain jammed.. hehex.. att, if u're reading this.. i'll be coming to school early tomorrow.. lets finish up e maths together atyes.. see ya then.. and if theres anything.. message my hp.. and if i dun reply.. gimme a call, wait till i answer. then i reply you back.. cause i can never wake up if anybody messaged me.. only call.. hehe.. okiesh!!

bubbles everyone..! mMuackXx!! love yah darling hus.. =D

Shio stressed up lahx..

2005-01-29T10:56:00.000-08:00

haix.. can someone please help me.. i'm so stressed up.. i'm not sure on how to divide my tyme.. as in, i got a whole week of tests seyy.. and it starts this monday!! help me everybody!!!

Monday,, Social Studies test...
Tuesday,, Biology and Pure Chemistry test...
Wednesday,, History test...
Friday,, Physics test...

I only got a free thursdae..Compared to my 3e2'05 chinese friends.. theirs is really a whole week.. they got a chinese test on thursday.. thats so sad ryte.. i really pity 3e2.. study hard study smart kaes 3e2..!!

well, now i do feel as if im a big failure.. haix.. but nas and HiM said it is just the beginning and i shouldnt give up.. yeah!! i must be very strong..!! DON'T GIVE UP KYRR.. just do the same as you did fer now GIVING UP MY LOVE TOWARDS HIM..!! hehex.. yeah!! =)

Kyrr will never give up.. If ever i fall off a MOUNTAIN.. i will bring myself up again.. Thats the mountain i gotta to climb in order to get to the tip of it.. Thats the way to be an avhiever.. Never Give Up!! hehexx

Okieshh then.. Kyrr wanna go and bath first..Cause later i'll be going out to tamp's to do my malay project and study fer my tests... Nasrul going out with kak liyana.. So please, take good care of yourself.. =) HiM..? erm not sure if he's going out.. have not asked him yet.. dint had the tyme to ask him last night.. besides, he was out and when he got home he studied.. so, gotta understand he's situation.. hehex.. wanted to tell him not to call me, but he was faster and he said he was too tired.. opps.. sowiee dear.. mMuackSs!! if u're going out rights, please take good care of yourself.. if there's anything, i'll just give ya a call or send you a message kiesh..

Gonna miss you lots dear.. Mmuackss!! Love ya no matter whutt.. You'll always be my number 1..my prince charming.. my everything.. Love ya love ya.. !! Bubbles everyone.. (",)

-. Be it 24/7 or less, i will still love you no matter whutt.. Muacks!

Hate my cousin..!!

2005-01-27T17:46:00.000-08:00

Haix.. stupid cousin.. tuduh orang smarangan.. maki maki.. idiot..!! Forget it.. I dont wanna talk about it no more..

Well, school was perfectly alright.. Terserempak him again this MORNING!! Whee!! Morning tau!! Morning!! Hehee.. And before we given met face to face, i started smiling already... Lisa lah.. *ehem ehem* herre and there.. Hahakx.. Buat malu jerr.. Hehe.. Then recess too met HiM again.. Dys time round was really next to him.. FUNTASTICALLY FUNTASTIC!!! hahaks.. whee!! i'm so in love with boy..!! hehe.. then after searching for lynn which she actually wasnt in school, went back to study area.. studied add maths.. had an add maths test just now after school.. with 3e1 in the AVA room.. hahax!

not that bad lah the test.. boleh tahan teruk jugak.. =) then,after test went LP with att n lisa.. ate at mac and guess whutt!! we saw mr sin and some other teachers outside CFC...Mr ridzwan saw us entering the mac.. but we dint care much... just got ourselves and empty place, ordered, ate and then we left the place.. there was no other reason why we should still be sitting there.. so we made a move.. ahahks.. on our way out, more and more gv students on their way to LP.. ahaha.. hopefully mr sin and the rest dont mind.. cause i think i remembered them saying to us gv students not to hang out at LP after school.. something like that lah.. then at the bus stop then i took out my hp.. then thats when i got angry..!! argh!!

messaged att when i was at west plaza... asked her if she wants a copy of the periodic table i had.. so, photocopied 2 pieces.. one fer her and the other lisa.. well, not much homework todae.. planned not to go band tml... see furst lah.. but most likely i'll be going.. haix.. naz wont be coming.. cause he's having SL ( service leadership ) i suppose.. hehe.. whuttever it is lah.. but luckily tml miss yip not coming.. if not we wont have enuff percussionists.. haix...

saturday going out.. gotta do some MALAY projects.. plus my notes for next week's testS.. a lot of them seyy.. then after that if i got tyme left, will be surveying the malls.. hehex.. u know cause of whutt.. searchin for the ideal prezzy to get him.. lots on my mind.. still not sure whutt to get.. haix.. any suggestions anyone..?? * think think *

hmm, aint know whutt else to write lah.. haix.. ouh yah.. missing HiM lots lots lots lots lots lots lots lots!!! hahaks.. only get to meet HiM in school.. and we rarely talk.. he wont be online cause he's computer broke down.. haix.. sad seyy.. but still contacting him.. messaged his hp.. called him.. haha.. but not always i call him lah.. hehe.. mostly its messages.. hahaks.. smiled at nadia low during recess too.. hehe.. sweet ghurl she is..

hmm, having cramps now.. the whole right arm.. my right leg.. my left calf.. my tummy.. haix.. it aches!! then something's on my finger.. couldnt be rashes.. it looks to different.. and whutts more, i've never seen anything like it too.. haix.. will be going to the docs if it gets worst the next dae or two.. haix haix haix.. got back REP paper.. dont wanna talk about it too.. haix haix.. k lah.. i'll end herre.. =)

mMuackXx!! love you hus..!! take care.. (",) Kyrr...

Wonderousfully dae...

2005-01-26T21:05:00.000-08:00

haha.. whutt does my title actually mean..?? hehe.. forget it.. oh well, today was like the best day ever for this week.. Firstly, had PE in the morning.. I was all BLUE todae.. Heheks.. Att and Lisa knows why.. Wahaha!! Then when me,att n lisa was changing, 4td ghurls came into the toilet.. Then they were in a rush to pass their handphones to us.. Practically, their class was called out for spot check.. Haha.. I went blank seh.. Hahaks.. So, after i got the phone, slide it into my skirt pocket.. then i somewhutt squated down and fold my skirt lah.. Suddenly,!! Mrs Moreira came into the ghurls toilet. Terkejut Beruk seyy!! Wahaha..

She asked us if any of 4td's students in there.. Whutt the heck.. Gave me a huge shock seyy she.. Ahaks.. So, without delaying more tyme.. Walked back to the study area.. Waited for mr az.. Ahaks.. Then,went to the basketball court.. He told us his story about the day he got himself injured.. Ghee.. So sad.. Hehekss.. Then played Hand Ball!! FuNnTaStIcCc!!! Hehe.. Then had e maths.. Went to the lab.. Wahaha.. Guess whutt.. for the first period only me and att did the hey maths! thingy.. after that we went bloggin.. ahah.. tag one another.. Wahaha.. Sempat eyy.. Hehexx..

Overall, school was alright.. Had band after school.. Ouh yah.. Forgot one thing. Erm, during recess i and him somewhutt knock onto one another.. Erm.. shud be lah.. but i know i was very shocked to have like intercepted with him. Hehexx!! Fun!! Love it love it!! Hehe.. And he turned to look again.. Whee!!!!!! I'm so in love with HiM.. Heheexx..Ghal came down to school.. Talk2 to him and mr malik.. During my sectionals..Hahaha..Celebrated abg hirwandie's bdae.. With abg Arie, kak shima n zulaiha.. Cool!! Hehe.. And it was choc cake!! Wow Whee!!

Haha.. Then we started this particular game in band.. Among the malays only lah.. It goes like this.. Whoever said a single vulgar word will have to pay 50 cents!! Ahahaks.. And guess whutt, just today we collected $2.. Haha.. So cool So cool.. Hehe.. Well, i guess i have to end herre right now.. Gotta go and do my homeworks.. Hehe.. Messaging him too.. Fun!! Muacks!!

-. KyrR Lurp HiM .-

Wow..Its so late..

2005-01-26T00:14:00.000-08:00

yeah..its already 11.54pm and i'm still awake.. well,its not that i want to stay up till so late..I just cunt put myself to bed..And i feel so bad..Cause i'm suppose to be asleep right now..Haix..Sorry nas..Sorry hus.. Haix..

well,to tell the truth... I feel very down right now.. I don;t even feel like i'm me.. the me me.. haix.. just try to understand whutt i mean.. Hmm, anywae lets just forget about all that.. Now about my dae.. Hahaks..

School was a total blast!! Dint even feel sleepy at all the whole dae.. And i was 100% paying attention to all the lessons.. Except e-maths..! Haix.. Dont ask me why.. Hahaks.. Then during the morning assembly, saw HiM.. Haha.. Looked so cute with his tie on.. Hakx! And yah, not to forget.. I pissed Fareez off!! Whee!! It was so cooL!! I mean like.. He deserved it.. Its a long story though.. Haha.. LAZY to tell it out.. Sorry!!

So yah, as i was saying.. I pissed fareez off.. So cool.. Then during recess, managed to stop by Fareez class to pass a letter wrote by att.. Passed it to joshua as he was right by the window standing.. I think he was so eagerly waiting to be released for recess.. Hahakss!! Yah, then during assembly itself.. Had two talks.. Was quite interesting though.. Haha.!! Am i alright...?!?! Well, not bad lah actually.. Then after school went food court with Att, Lisa and Nad.. I think we were too bored at that point of time and dint know where to go.. Att dint had the mood to go home early.. I was cracking my head, thinking of how to print out the add maths assignments.. Haix.. Hate it whenever my computer have the problems..

Then went home.. Called nas if he was able to help me print it out.. But he was already dressing up to get to school.. So had to call att instead.. She tried printing it out while we were still on the phone.. Then, went to her crib at around 6.. Took the paper from her, walked from her house to the interchange.. Top up my mrt fare.. Not yet bus fare..Haix.. Using the concession lah.. Hahs.. Then after topping up mrt fare, a lady behind me asked for help.. Well, helped her.. She dint really know how to use the machine.. So taught her and know she knows how.. Well, i feel so happy.. Haha.. I mean like, wow! i just helped someone.. Haha.. Though i was in the mood of sadness..

Messaged HiM too.. asked where he was.. Any hwx and so on.. Well, no doubt i do feel like as though everywhere i go.. Out of the house i gotta tell him.. Something like that lah.. Hahx.. Hey, he really mean a lot to me.. After all, it has been 2 and a half years almost 3,i've been keeping quiet about my feelings towards him.. And well, now he knows it.. So i aint have to keep it as a secret no more.. Hahx!! I just feel so secured with him around.. Although he might be miles away from me.. I know that his heart and mine are as one.. =) mMuackSs! Lurve ya darling..

Yeah.. I've planned on whutt to buy for v.dae.. Shafiq bought it already for himself and his ghurl.. So sweet..!! Hahx.. Planning to go with either jayn or lisa.. See lah how it goes.. Hmm, and i suppose this post of mine is getting longer and longer if i dont stop now.. Besides, its already SO VERY late.. Gotta go to sleep now.. Sorry people.. I try and continure it the next post..atyes.. Good nights.. Sleep tights.. Sweet dreams..!!

[[`__I may not be able to see you every 24/7, but i will still love you no matter whutt happens__`]] Love you Love HiM.. Muackss!!

Fuyoo!!

2005-01-22T19:46:00.000-08:00

Whee!! Guess who's back.? Back again.. Kyrr is back..!! Hehx.. Okok.. well, went out just now with my mum, G's mum and my grandmum.. Went to my uncle's place at marsiling.. Well, kindda miss that family though.. Haix.. And i really love this cousin of mine.. he's the eldest in the family.. he is so sweet!! Hahaks!! My cousin tau!! Hehe

Well, gotta to know to he's getting married this May.. Man!! Why must he get married so fast.. aHaKs!! Oh well, he was destined to it. Hehee.. My brother too getting engaged soon.. Wow.. 2005 is real cool.. Hehee.. =) Spent an hour or two there.. Talking to them.. Dint visit them during Hari Raya so visited them now.. Hehexx..

Daddy fetch us home.. As usual.. I slept in the taxi.. Cunt take it.. The sun was really scorching just now.. And gee.. Now i have a terrible headache.. But hey, i'm alright.. Messaged him.. Asked where he were.. Cycling.. Wow! I was suppose to go blading too just now but had the plans all mixed up.. Haix..

Baby dear.. just a reminder.. Dont forget to do your homework.. Hehx.. Dont be lazy atyes.. You're taking your O's tau.. Remember that.. Muax!! And i will promise you that this year's Valentines dae will be a paradise for you.. Hehe.. =) Luv ya..

And to everyone out there.. Kyrr wanna wish everyone an advance Happy Valentines Day!! And to att.. hey, it was nothing.. that's whutt friends are for.. hehe.. Muakx!! Take care everyone.. And to Nas.. Boy, you really changed.. Aint know if you still read my bloggie.. Just wanna say that I dont think i know the Nas that i know before anymore.. Haix.. Buiaks sumer.. (",)

Morning everyone!!!

2005-01-22T10:06:00.000-08:00

_.Whee*]] Kyrr's awake early in the morning!! Woohoo!! Well, i dunno why i woke up so early todae but i think cause my mum went to open my window and as usual, the sun shined thru.. Well, at least i DID wake up early today.. Its a record..!! Well, i've been waking up late like around 12 or 1 since the first saturday of January'05.. Ahaks..!! Terrible meeh ey.. hehe.. anyway...

MoRnInG bAbY!! Hehee.. aint sure if you got your soccer training today..But then i suppose i should juust message you later around noon.. Dont really wanna disturb you thats if you are busy.. So,yah.. You had a perfectly exhausting day yesterday.. Though you dint sleep that early but hey, MmUuAaCcKkSs!!! you will always have a good night's rest with sugary and candy dreams hugging your pillow tightly to get a very tight sleep.. Hehee.. Muax! i will always love you darling.. =) Lurve you Lurve HiM.. Hehe..

anyway, i got lots of confessions to do... Firstly, i wanna let go all of my hatred towards fareez herre.. So, do bare with me for this "kindda" short post about him atye..
*Fareez* argh!!! whutts up with you boy!! you think its nice to HURT a girl's heart is it!?!?! do you think you're able to get all the pretty young girls out there just like that..?!?!? well maybe yes..but not for long.. after all, you hurt att.. if you hurt her it simply means you hurt me too.. Whutt kindda man are you,huh?!?!? got attitude problem is it..?? and do you think its easy for you to be just that free.. well boy !! you better think twice.. not for long.. just see whutt will happen to you.. its not that i'm gonna hurt you or something.. neither is att too.. you gonna regret it all your life..!! if its once its ok.. she can just forgive and forget.. but its the third time you *toot*!! and its aint her fault.. its totally your fault!! she tried her best to give you the perfect love you needed.. but whutt did you do to her.??!?! ignore her.dumped her.leave her. *toot* you and your ego with your terrible attitude.!! better change yourself for good.. cause you aint gonna like whutt you'll have later in the future.. i'm gonna count every single mistake you done to att.. i aint gonna let you go just like that.. you've got to repay her back..!! hmph!! and yah, after you left att just like that, you got yourself another girl.. hey!! GROW UP YOU DESPERADO!! i've never seen such DESPERATE guys like you... you just WONT and NEVER understand how a girl feels.. UNFEELING.DESPERADO!! hate you hate you hate you to the core.. and whoever the ghurl is right now that is your stead.. SHE'S STUPID ENOUGH TO HAVE FALLEN FOR YOU!!! you aint worth no love from no one!!! just wait and see.. *ARGH*!!!

okie dokies.. i'm done with that.. hehe.. to att.. dont worry ghurl.. you still got me and lisa.. we will always be there for you.. although you looked like you aint got no troubles.. i know that deep inside you, you do.. you can always appraoch me whenever you want.. just say out everything.. and about nad.. let her be.. we'll just see till when she will hold on to that attitude of hers.. =) and as for me... Well, i'll still be studying very very very hard and i aint gonna let my love towards hus fade away.. the moments i had with him on the 02 january will always be the moment that forever will be golden.. i know you can feel the love i have for you.. just to let you know, that love will keep on growing stronger.. muacks!

_. Absence sharpens love.. Presence Strenthens it*]] (",) mMuaHh!!

Havent been updating...

2005-01-21T19:49:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone..!! Sowie kyrr dint blog for quite sometime.. Was very very very busy with school.. Sowie2.. Hehe.. Well, for the past 3 weeks in school.. School was perfectly fine.. 3e2 is not that bad either although there is only 6 MALAY in my class.. Hmm, can be said lah.. we do get along SOMEIIMES.. hehe.. but hey, its ok.. we're in school to study and end the educations fast.. Hehex.. Nah nah.. kidding only.. Hehe.. well, through 3e2, I am so lucky to have att and lisa in my class too.. Well,I found myself getting to know them much better and also getting to know myself better too.. Hehee.. Although I dont slack around with the 2e5'o4 anymore, its not that I've forgotten them or whutt.. But its just that, I feel kindda uneasy around them.. But hey,I still shake hands with them though.. Not that I forced myself to do so,but i do care about them still.. Heheks..

_.att*]] ghurl,I know you are still havin the aches in ur heart but hey,just forget about him.. He aint worth your love at all.. So,just move on with your life..enjoy whutt you have now.. and not to forget.. always approach me whenever you need my help.. i will try my best to help you.. dont worry.. cause you will always be a friend of mine who is trustworthy,caring.. and who knows whutts best fer herself..hehe.. (",) always believe in yourself..

_.lisa*]] hey v.c!! hehx.. well, i know that i mtye not know you that well but hey 3e2 is the best tyme for us to get closer.. especially with att around.. hehe.. we always do things together.. well, not that always though.. but we do help each other along.. hehe.. and that will be ALWAYS..ahahks.. if you get whutt i mean.. hehe.. keep that love you have for him grow stronger..you can never know if you are destined to be with him in the future.. hehe.. atyes.. =)

and to 3e2'05.. keep the spirit of the class grow stronger forever!!! hehee.. (",) anyway, the best thing about school is.. i get to see him.. hehe.. exchanging smiles with one another aint that bad either... hehee..

i love seeing the happy smile upon his face... i just love it.. cause i know he will be as happy as ever whenever he's around with his buddies.. love ya H!! mmuacckks!! keep that smile upon ur face all the tyme.. will always be praying hard fer ur health and studies.. muacks!! luv ya luv ya.. =)

and by the way.. i'm really looking forward towards gvss's Valentines Day performance.. I'm gonna love it to the core.. Auditions' this tuesday.. And yeah, i got everything planned up for that dae.. hehe.. gonna love gonna love it.. hehex.. jayn n me gonna have loads of fun together.. hehe.. and yah not to forget HiM too.. hehex.. =) hopefully..

k lah.. kyrr gotta go now.. need to change blogskin... hehe.. if only i got the tyme to continue on.. but my brother is so freakingly wanna use the extention.. haix.. k lah... chaos.. buhbyes.. =)

_.Kyrr Lurp HiM*]]

Whee...!!

2005-01-12T21:25:00.000-08:00

Hey there.. its been quite sometime since i've updated this bloggie of mine.. Heheks!! Sowie tau.. Well, been very busy this few days ever since school reopened.. Hahks.. And yah I did mention about myschool getting its building painted in a different colour.. Wanna whutt colour it is now.. Well, I'm from GREENVIEW sec right.. But my school doesnt even look that green.. In fact it looked Bluish and orange.. Geez!! Whutt a colour seh.. The blue does looked nice.. Hehe.. Cause its his favourite colour! Hehee.. So I dont mind the school looking so Bluish!!.. hehee... But the ORANGE.. eww!! It sucks to the maximum!!! Hahaakss.. I wonder who was the one who wanted the school gate to be so orange.. The chemistry lab looks so nice caused its in PINK!! and I love pink!! Hehe.. So,pink and blue does look really nice together.. Ahaks.. You know whutt I mean.. Hehee.. (",) *Winks!*

hMm, school was ok just now.. Had football fer P.E quite fun-tastic.. But too bad I injured myself.. Haiz.. Suffered muscle pull on my left leg and had myself being kicked at mah body.. Geez..It hurts to the max seh.. Haiz.. But whutt to do.. FOOTBALL~ hEhEe.. E-maths was quite difficult due to yesterday's hw.. But now understand already.. Will be having E-maths test this friday I think.. So have to study very very hard.. And erm, I still say Additional Mathematics is easier.. Seriously.. Its very easy compared to E-maths.. Add maths just need ur understandin.. Hahaa.. I think lah... Wahaha!! (",)

He called me last night.. Good~ Was waiting for his call.. Hehee.. Muacks!! Yah, den my mum came to my doorstep and knocked on the door.. And guess whutt.. She caught me hanging on the phone.. Aww~ too bad seh.. Hehee, but it was better then nothing at least I got to talk to him on the phone.. I'm really feeling that he is right there by my side 24/7 although we might be miles apart.. Or even though we rarely talk in school, I still feel that he is right by my side.. I really love you.. Muax!! And yah, thanks fer talking to me just now after school during my Band sectionals.. Hehee.. Furst tyme seh talking to you IN SCHOOL.. hehe.. Muax!! Lurve ya so much!! A kIsS FeR My LuRvE oNe.. mMuUaAcCkKsS!!!!

Band was cool.. Celebrated asman's,sailah's,syireen's and Suffian's bdae.. Hehee.. Pizza lah.. As usual.. Haha.. Padahal its the first time having PIZZA as a bdae party thingy.. Wahaha!! Thanks to nasrul for helping me call the Canadian Pizza to place my order.. Hehe.. Thanks alot nas.. If it wasnt for you the party whouldnt be a success.. Heheekz!!

Well everyone, Kyrr gotta go now.. Gotta finish up my homework.. Need to be handed in by tomorrow.. Sheesh.. Muax!! Ntyesz!!! Muax!!

"... KyRr ..."
LuRvE HiM LoTs!!
"... mUaX ..."

P.S: My school made this special Magazine thingy.. Well, I did made a dedication to HiM.. Muax!! Lurve ya.. Do check it out atyes dear.. MuAcKs!! LuRvE yA!!!

Untuk Ibu Tersayang Ku...

2005-01-08T22:19:00.000-08:00

Although you might not be able to read this.. I wanna let you know something.. I really love you lots even if you don't realise it.. Hehee.. This is something special for you.. Muax!

Apakah sebenarnya
Terbuku dikalbumu
Apakah erti linang airmata di pipimu
Ucapkanlah padaku
Tak bisa kurungkainya
Rahsia yang kau pendam itu...

Aku hanya menduga
Tidak mampu merasa
Sebenar-benar perasaanmu
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakan ku
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakanku
Hanya bisa ditangguing oleh hati ibu...

Namun kupercaya
Takkan terlerai kasih
Ikatan ini takkan putus
Telah kau telan lara
Dan terima segala
Dugaan dan badai yang melanda...
Duhai ibu...

I love you so much!! =) muax!
KyRr...
Lurve HiM (",)

Absence Sharpens Love, Presence Strengthens It

2005-01-08T12:46:00.000-08:00

Afternoon everyone..!! Kyrr was awake since 8 am.. Aint know why woke up so early.. But actually slept at 3am.. Geez! Heheks.. Ladt night was very fun.. Talked on the phone with him.. Laugh here and there.. Hehee.. Fun lah he.. (",) Heheks!

Talked about so many things.. Got critism also.. Hehe.. Tak kisah lah.. Dah biasa punn kene critic.. But not "Pendek.." Geez.. Am I that short..?? Hehe.. Well, some of the conversations was like "whoa, serious talking seh..." Hehee.. But we took it cool.. Hehee.. Syakirah's a very cool person.. Dunn like to force people, dunn like to rush things.. But she needs the space to express out everything..Hahaks.. Funny rtye this ghurl here.. Ahaks..!

Syakirah hopes he's ok with everything that's happened last night.. If you felt offended or something.. Syakirah wanna say sorry... Muacks!! Lurve ya always..

Later I'm going out to Tampines... Slacking fer awhile then study.. Have tooh finish up my homeworks by today larhs.. Got Add and E maths homework.. Got Bio notes to do.. Got to read up History chapter 1, I think.. Wow.. So many things to do.. Sheesh! But hey, all this isnt that impossible to do.. Its either you wanna do or you dunn wanna do.. Hehee.. *winks!*

Well, meeting up Icha,Farah n Afiqah under Icha's blk.. Meeting up at 2 or 2.30 like that lah.. I'm so positively sure that Farah will be begging us to take neoprints.. Alah..."Must I..?" I aint got no cent.. Gotta save it up fer the Ten Year Series book.. Wow.. Lots of stuffs to buy seh.. With a "Valentine's Day Present" to think of..I bet you know who it's for.. Ahaks! No one else but him lah.. Hehe..

V.D coming soon,followed by my burfdae..Then Kak Wiwie's Burfdae..Ahaks!! Gonna celebrate it with a blast.. Hehee.. So anybody who wants to celebrate VD or my birthday.. Ask me out!! Hehee..!! (",) Muax!

Ok lah. I wanna have my bRuNcH now.. Hehee.. Hungry lah.. Its been 4 days straight aint eating that much.. Hahaa..!! BuHbYeS theN.. Muax!! So,if there's anything important to say or whutt..Call my hp.. Wokiesh!!

"absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it..."
(,") Kyrr
Muax! Lurve HiM.. (",)

Its Been A Week

2005-01-07T20:23:00.000-08:00

Wow.. Its so fast.. Its already been a week i've been in school.. Yah, and no doubt, school was perfectly fine.. Its just that the school's now under "painting.." and the colours are really YUCKY!! Everytime I step into the school's study building.. I will feel like as if I had no mood to study sehs.... The colours are too DULL!! Very dull.. Expecially the classroom doors.. Eww!! Yuckies to the max sehs.. Hahaks.. And I suppose the whole school hates it to the core too.. (",) *WinkS*

Well, so far this whole week I met him everyday.. As in, I see him,smile but never talk.. Hehee.. Alah, syakirah dunn mind at all.. As long as he never forgets me its alright with me already.. Hehee.. Syakirah lurves him so much.. It was all cause of Nasrul who have made me pull myself together and see the world out there.. There are lots more who deserve the lurve they needed from me and also meeh who deserve the lurve from that special someone.. Yah, its already been two years syakirah lurves him.. (Not nasrul but another person..) The reason syakirah was somewhutt in love with nasrul is because syakirah needs the time to cool herself down and not to think much abt him.. Yes he may not know whutt syakirah had when thru all this while, but hey, nothing has ever made me change the feelings I had for him...

Nasrul too had a place in my heart but it was never meant to be.. He got who he really loves most and he loves her with all his heart.. So, why cunt syakirah too be happy with the person she really loves and that she never wanna leave that special someone..? It all takes time.. We need lots of time to build that love between one another.. and syakirah's taking it slowly.. I just hope that I get to be with him like how I ever wanted.. Syakirah's giving him all the time he needed.. I'm a very patient person.. I never wanna rush things.. Especially with him taking his O level's this year.. I'm going to help him all the way till he ends his O'Levels.. But even so, Syakirah will never stop helping him neither will she stop loving him.. Till the end I'm sure to lurve him.. Nasrul have helped me alot.. And I really envy him.. Thanks a lot nasrul.. (",)

I'll continue again later.. I've got lots of studying to do.. Muax!
Lurve him..Muax!
Kyrr

A Wonderful Sunday Spent With You..

2005-01-03T22:48:00.000-08:00

Wow.. Sorry cause I dint blog yesterday.. Had a very wonderful day!! Wow.. Lemme tell ya about it..

hMm, it started off at 12.. The time that we promised to meet up at Tampines Interchange Small MaC.. Hehee.. But last minute changes.. I messaged him telling him to meet at 12.30 instead.. Had to grab the Woodlands Home key from Abg Ghal's crib...Hehee

So on the journey to Tamp Inter...Realised that it was only 12.10..So messaged him again,told him I was on my way already.. So, he arrived later..But it was my fault.. I don't blame him..Hehee.. (",) I owe you one..

Then we took the MRT to Woodlands.. Planned to go town but tak jadi so went Woodlands instead.. First thing that was on my mind was, " Are we able to communicate well..?? Hehee.. I'm a very very shy person..Hehee " But it was a great journey together.. We talked, chit chatted like we've never chatted before.. Criticism I had.. But no grudges.. Cause we love to joke around.. Hehee.. Always cool with everything..Hehee..

Then arrived Woodlands, took 900 back home.. Took Abg Ghal's shades.. Keys from my neighbour.. Walked in the rain together.. Got wet together.. Went to Ain's place, thought of grabbing my book but she wasnt in.. So had to meet her some other time instead.. Ain't know when.. Hehee..

Then to another bus back to Woodlands' Inter.. Went walkarounds at Causeway Point.. From bottom to top to bottom to basement to bottom.. Hahaa.. He'll understand what I'm saying.. Then ate at Burger King's.. *wow* A treat from him.. Woohoo!! Thank you so much!!! It was really sweet of you.. Such a gentleman you are.. (",)

Then after BrUnch,went to Inter again.. Making our way back to tamp.. Taking a bus this time round.. But we waited for another 168 though it has arrived.. Then in the bus itself, he felt cold.. Asked him if he wants my jacket but he said no.. So I din't give since he doesnt want it.. Gosh!! I was mean seh.. Should have just give it to him.. Haizz. Sowiee!! Im really really very sorry..!! A flower for you..

Then dropped down at Central.. Walked to Tamp Mall.. Walkarounds again.. Went into TR'S..Then after some time there, went to Tamp inter.. Making my way back to mah crib.. So, I thought that he was gonna just send me at the Inter itself.. But guess what.. He sent me home.. WooHoo!! Thanks Boy!! Hahaa.. I really love the times we had together..

The joy and laughters we shared.. The pinch'es I gave you.. *So sorry* The tickles you gave me.. Hahaa.. Was really tickle'ish seh.. Hehee. Terpaksa tahan... hahaa!! *Winks!!* Then had to walk in the rain again when we were on our way back to my crib.. Hehee... But lucky you dint fall sick.. If you do, I dunno how to forgive myself seh.. Heheee...

Well, the rest I shant mention.. Sowiee.. Well, I really hope we could go out like this more often boy.. Mish you mish the times we spent together... Looking forward fot the next moment.. (",)

Well, thats the most wonderful Sunday ever that was spent.. Hahaa.. And it was the last day of the holidays.. Woohoo!! Now about my first day in school being an Upper Secondary student.. Hehee..

School was fun..Very very fun.. Mr Roger Lim's 3e2 Form Teacher.. He's so fun.. Basically, school is always fun no matter what.. Well, nothing much happen.. Just the same old thing.. Hehee... Met a friend in school at level 4.. Haha.. Exchanged smiles..!! Love it!! Thanks a lot!! (",)

Then band was cool too.. But I arrived later..hehe.. went home first..Sempat seh...Mentang-mentang dah pindah. Wahaha.. K lah.. I got to go now.. Need to sleep.. Tmr schooling.. Buhbyes.. nitey nites.. Bubbles!!

Kyrr.. (",)
020105, a date to remember always..till the end!! Woohoo!! (",) MmUuAaCcKkSs!!!

P.s: You need not have to know who is the person I went out with.. Cause its my life..My way of living.. Haha.. So dont interfere.. Hahaa.. Except for the person himself that went out with me on that day lah.. BuBbLeS nOw!! (",)

Kyrr (",) Muax!

Girlfriends Getaway...

2005-01-01T18:14:00.000-08:00

Haha.. Aint know what title to put.. Well, herre goes...

I keep it versatile,cause that's my style
From hip-hop to bip-bop
I've been with shorties round the world
Variety is just my personality
Sometimes I just don't fit in
I see the open doorways
But no one wants to let me in
Grandma made me understand material things don't make the man
Try to find that inner wealth and learn to love yourself
Lately it's so hard to find peace of mind
I just got to get away from the haters and the instigators
The mis-conceivers and the non-believers
People don't believe the hype 'cause Leehom ain't no stereo type

No Crystale in the tub
Or iced out Spreewell dubs
I'm really not your average thug
Not your average gangster
And I won't be defined by the size of my knot
But the state of my mind
No Rolex on my wrist
Or platinum on my chest
'Cause I don't need that shit to impress
But y'all don't get it twisted
I got love for the ghetto
Tho I'm not your average thug

Lord I've been around the world
Sangin' near and far
People runnin' game all over
Judgin' me before we meet when they see me on the street
And they don't know a damn thing about me
It's a world of jealous deceit and envy
Seems like everybody tryin' to take something from me
Grandma made me understand material things don't make the man
So I found that inner wealth and learned to love myself
Lately it's so hard to find peace of mind
I just got to get away from the haters and the instigators
There's back-stabbers and money-grabbers
Users and abusers and they all wear smilin' faces

No Crystale in the tub
Or iced out Spreewell dubs
I'm really not your average thug
Not your average gangster
And I won't be defined by the size of my knot
But the state of my mind
No Rolex on my wrist
Or platinum on my chest
'Cause I don't need that shit to impress
But y'all don't get it twisted
I got love for the ghetto
Tho I'm not your average thug

Sometimes I feel like I'm gonna snap
And go off up in this piece on somebody
I ain't tryin' to say no names
But I ain't tryin' to play no games
Holla if you feel me people
Lately it's so hard to find peace of mind
So lift me up in a lonely world that's so unkind
There's back-stabbers and money-grabbers
Users and abusers,haters and instigators
and they all wear smilin' faces

No Crystale in the tub
Or iced out Spreewell dubs
I'm really not your average thug
Not your average gangster
And I won't be defined by the size of my knot
But the state of my mind
No Rolex on my wrist
Or platinum on my chest
'Cause I don't need that shit to impress
But y'all don't get it twisted
I got love for the ghetto
Tho I'm not your average thug

Kyrr (",)

Welcome 2005!!

2005-01-01T16:55:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone.. Kyrr's back.. Sorry!! Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you.. May all your resolutions of this year come through..Hmm, 2004 was a very memorable year for me.. Although I had some ups and downs.. Good and bad memories.. Hahaa!! Still it was a year full of fun and excitement.. Hahaaa!!

Hmm, my friends are all talking about their resolutions.. Oh well, what about myself sehss..!?!? Hahaa.. Hmm, how shall I put it.. Well, there are lots of resolutions but I rather mention the Important ones only... Hahaha.. How about that.. Set..? *evil lafs*

Ok-ok.. My resolution for the year 2005...
Firstly,to pass my examinations with multi-colours..Secondly,to spend more time studying... Thirdly, get a Silver for SYF this year... Lastly, to win boo's heart..

Hehee.. Well, thats all I suppose.. Got more but not gonna state it here.. Hehee.. Sowiee. Well, going out tmr..!! Whee!! Gonna love it.. Hehee.. (",)

Ok lah.. I end herre.. Need to do something now.. BuBbLeS!!
KyRr

A quick recap...

2004-12-24T07:57:00.000-08:00

hMm, sowie dint get to update bloggie earlier on.. Was very busy with the packing ups.. Well, all I can say is that, I am leaving tonight... Gonna miss all of my friends herre... Especially Fifa & Asri!! Hehee.. No lah.. Of course all of them.. Well, let me recap what I did that past few days...

* WeDnEsDaY * went to school to get my books.. Bought all of them except those that I already have.. Exercise book not a single one I bought...Cause I dont' wanna waste my money on all that... I'm already sick & tired of buying lots of it and end up not using them.. Hahaakz! So, met Icha in the morning... Went to school together... Went to her house to put all the stuffs there.. Went out again to Central.. Ate Fish & Chips.. Then make our way home... So we walked near the bus stop... Then saw him & his friends sitting down chatting.. Waiting fer the bus to arrive.. I thought he saw me so I like wanna make myself invisible.. *MaLu!!* Hehee... Then we slack under the void deck for awhile.. Waited for 21,saw him to the bus home with his friends,then we move.. Hahaa.. So back at Icha's house.. Slack in her room.. Listen to Jazz songs.. *cool* Took lots of photos there.. Her sista helped us snap it.. Wahaa!! Gerek ah.. Just cannot forget the moment spent with my best friend!! Whee!! Then I make a move from her house at 5... Reach my casa, bath.. Lots more packing to do.. Haiz.. But I really had a very wonderful day.. =>

*ThUrSdAy* girls day out!! Whee!! Well, it was suppose to be me and the sembawang-ions... But none of them was free.. *Ushering* So cancelled it.. But my bestfriends and I went to town.. Cool.. It was an all girls day out.. We were going out in 4ours.. Me,Icha,Smurfy & Fiqah... Met Icha & Fiqah pat pondok in front of school... Then went back to school to buy uniform.. Then back to Icha's house.. Waited for her to dress up.. Bla.Bla.Bla.. Then took a bus to interchange.. Waited fer smurfy.. But we went to Food Point to get ourselves a cup of drink... Then on the way down, intercepted with LyNn & Fahmy... They had just finish their project I suppose.. Fahmy was bringing his guitar along.. Then back to the interchange waited fer smurfy.. Went to the toilet first,went out & BOO! Smurfy's herre.. Hehee..

Then took the mrt to Town.. Bought my school shoes.. An all brown Vans shoes and an all white Nike shoes... I love brown!! Nike will be for school.. BooHoo!! Hate that principle of mine.. What's wrong with using the coloured shoes...?!?! We are in school to study so let us use any shoe we want lah!! Haizz!! Then we went to Esplanade.. Ate there.. Hahaa.. Took photos with an all red car.. Cool!! Then went near the "river" took photos again.. Precisely, we took lots of photos everywhere..!! We just love this perfect day... Then walked to Merlion... Took photos there too.. Hahaa!! Then walked to Raffles Mrt.. Then to Orchard... From there,Walk-walk ate at mcdonalds for dinner.. Then went home... Hahaa!! A perfect day spent!! WooHoo!! Just love it.. Pictures are updated at "Princess Pix 2" under "KyrrzOutingWithFwens"..

So what are you waiting for.. Go check it out... Hehee..!! => BubbLes!!

Something New!!!

2004-12-21T23:11:00.000-08:00

Whee~!! Wanna know something..? Kak wiwie bought me this lovely stuffs from Manchester... Cool seh! Then kan, its all about Princess!! Wahaha.!!

VIP = very important princess

Ahaks! =) Ok.. and a lovely key chain too.. Hehee.. Ntyez then everyone... * Boo's calling tmr nite!!* Whee..

Music Exchange Programme!!

2004-12-21T18:31:00.000-08:00

Whee!! Just got back from school.. Hmm,daddy send me there... And guess what!?!! Met Janna nNn Husaini!!! Yeah!! So happy to see them.. Especially them.. Hahaa.. Not the others arh.. eheks! Hmm, Janna is still as cool as she is.. => Husaini.. Hmm, should I mention it here..? Oh well, rather not.. At least he knows what it is.. Hehee.. Told him earlier on.. But then right, when Janna called my name I was already looking at him seh.. Not her.. Hehee.. But then,chatted with her not him.. Malu lah!! Hehee.. A very shy person I am ok.. Hehee.. (",)

Ok..So,before I met the both of them... Joined the band in the music room to get the instruments brought down to the foyer.. *the one outside G.O* Thought that there would be a lorry or something to bring the instruments over to Bedok Green Secondary.. But guess what!! There are only two buses and all of us was seperated into 2 groups.. Then the first group I think was all the small intruments like Clarinet,Bass Clarinet,Flutes.. Then the second group was the big instruments.. Tuba.Saxaphones.. Sheessh!! Then all must be brought into the bus with us along sehss.. So sempit!! Hehee.. But lucky for the Percussionists... We need not bring anything along.. Except for our scores,stands and Drumsticks.. Eheks!

But hey,Percussionists wasnt that self-centered okaes..We helped out too you know... Especially Syakirah.. She helped the Tuba's.. Berat-berat pun tolong angkat jugak tauz.. But Syakirah wasnt the only one who helped.. The others jugak.. Hehee!! And yah.. I was very careless just now..I ACCIDENTALLY dropped Bedok Green's snare drums.. Sorry!!! Dint mean to do so..! (",) A flower for you.. Hehee.. *Smiles!* Hmm, then I was very shocked.. You wanna know why!? Cause *he* messaged me!! Whee~!!

*Feels like I'm floating in the sky above seh!!* WooHoo!! Just love it whenever you message me.. Hehee.. It feels very different.. Whee~!! Ahaks!!!

Ok-ok..Back on track.. Hmm,Clementi Town Secondary School Concert Band impressed me alot.. The student conductor itself is already so very good!! *wow!* Then the drummer is so perfect also.. I mean the way he plays the solo.. Hahaa.. Cool sehs!! Liyana was impressive too.. Cool! Hahaa.. Clementi Town is just so good.. Wow!! *Applause!!* Ahakz! Hmm, Bgss not bad either.. Only that one of their percussionists is just sick in the ass.. Idiot!! Hahaa..

**If you think you're so good,show it then!?!? Can you play the drumset!?! Huh!?!!? Don' t you ever dare look down on me uh!! Just because I'm a girl you think I can't play the drumset issit!! HUH! Watch out ah!! Hmph!! **

Lastly, we had photo taking sessions!! Cool seh!! I just love taking pics!! WooHoo!! =) Exchanged gifts.. Wow.. Wonderful.. Hopefully next year Greenview secondary will be the host!! Wow!! =>
Bubbles!!

A very tight schedule I have...

2004-12-21T01:22:00.000-08:00

Oh wow.. hMm, today was fine.. Chatted with Husaini.. At last you figured it out.. Hehee.. Just don't avoid me again.. You promised me not to anywae.. Hehee.. And a promise is a promise.. Rest assured you will always be on my mind.. Through good times and bad times.. =)

Now,the moment of truth.. Ahakz!! Okiesh!.. The tight schedule I have for this whole week..

*Monday* 20th December 2004 *Packing up..Fragiles*
*Tuesday* 21st December 2004 * Music exchange programme at 8 till 3.30*
*Wednesday* 22nd December 2004* Out to Bedok with Ain*
*Thursday* 23rd December 2004 * Out with the Sembawang-ions & Ais to town n Yishun*
*Friday* 24th December 2004* Last Minute Pack-ups..*
*Saturday* 25th December 2004* The moment I'll be away & very busy.. To Pasir Ris... Shifting time!! =)

What a week I'm gonna have seh.. Gosh! In fact all the days I'll be doing the packings.. Just dint mention it down.. Geez! =) Well, gotta blast.. Will be having my Music Exchange Programme at Bedok Green Sec tomorrow.. With Clementi Town sec too.. Wish us luck!! Good Nights everyone!! Bubbles!! =>

eMoIsH mEeH!

2004-12-20T19:08:00.000-08:00

Love wandered inside.Stronger than you.Stronger than I.And now it has begun.We cannot turn back.We can only turn into one.I won't ever be too far away to feel you.And I won't hesitate at all whenever you call.And I'll always remember. The part of you so tender.I'll be the one to catch when you fall. And I'm truly inspired. Finding my soul there in your eyes. And you have opened my heart. And lifted me inside by showing me youself undisguised. And I will breathe for you each day. Comfort you through all the pain. Gently kiss your fears away. You can turn to me and cry. Always understand that I give you all I am inside. I won't ever be too far away to feel you. And I won't hesitate at all whenever you call. And I'll always remember the part of you so tender. I'll be the one to catch you when you fall... =>

Lovely but boring day...

2004-12-20T18:51:00.000-08:00

hMm,I just finished reading my school's REP passage.. Well,its my fourth time reading it... Hmm, its about Segregated schools.. Wow~ I just don't get it seh.. Haiz.. But nevermind, Kyrr's always able to read all kinds of books with lots of understanding.. Hahaa!! Bloopers! Ahaks!

Abg fa'iz back from town.. Well, as usual lah.. Sleeping.. Teruk seh.. Tak mandi tak ape.. Da tidur alik.. Ape nyer orang.. Haiz.. Taurus is also sleeping.. Sedap nyer dorang tidur.. Maghrib maghrib pulak tuu.. Ya allah.. apa lah nak jadi ngan abg aku nie...

Mummy also back from work already... Hmm,it seems like I'm invisible ey... Tak cakap hi pun.. Hahaa.. Nevermind.. What I care.. Hehee.. Abg Ghalid also back at home.. Asking him for more songs.. Hahaa.. He's the Mr Jukebox.. Wahaa..

Ok lah... I wanna read that REP passage again... Too bored already.. Bubbles!

Meaningful..Cool..Wow~

2004-12-20T13:42:00.000-08:00

This feeling of love that I holw within my heart for you runs deeper than any ocean or sea...
I just wished you tell how much you mean to me...
If you hold me,you would feel my love for you that burns with a flame high enough to last...
If you hear my heartbeat,then you would understand the language of love which it speaks...
If you kiss me,then you would taste my love for you that's so sweet...
And if you look into my eyes,the window to my soul...
You would know all this ain't no lie...

So,if what you feel for me is real.And what you say is true...
Then with all my heart would I trust thee...
If you want me as your love as much as I want you to be mine...
I give you this heart of mine and ask nothing less or nothing more...
But just that you don't ever break my heart...

My love and trust is all I can give to you...
Sealed with honesty throughout and as time goes by...
May it grow stronger to fullfill your heart's desire...

Hear this my declaration of love..
From me to you...
I love you *My Boo,My Teddy,My Prince* with all my heart..
And I will never stop loving you...
You're my life..You're my everything.... =>

*p.s* aint thinking of who's my boo my teddy my prince.. so,saper2 yang nak tau saper..ask me personally.. But i think the person knows who.. Bubbles!

Morning Everyone...

2004-12-20T11:10:00.000-08:00

Good Morning everyone! ~wow~ Kyrr seems so happy today..Wanna know why..? Because, she woke up very early today.. Hehee Usually around noon than I'll be awake up you know... But thanks to my dear senior who called me early in the morning just to ask me to layan him cause he's so bored at home.. So layankan ajer lah lelaki tuu.. Hehee But its ok lah Better for me too..

Abg Fa'iz is already out to town to search for a job.. Any recommendation anyone..? Hehee.. He went with abg ghalid and abg arie.... Good luck abg-abg ku semua.. Eheks! *winks* And abg fa'iz please remember what ibu say about the "qualities..." Hahaa!!

hMm, tatty teddy messaged me early in the morning too.. It was a very meaningful message.. Rest assured I'll keep it.. Yah, even the very first message you gave me I kept it till now.. Hehee... Muackx! But sorry dint reply...

Well, baru-baru jugak habis makan breakfast... Nanny bought nasi ayam fer me.. And now I'm having stomach aches.. Oh well, chatting with kak iffah now at msn.. Talking about band... Hahaa.. We kinda hate band's tyming.. Hehee.. Gotta go now... Testi's to write.. Bubbles! =>

Expressing It All...

2004-12-20T02:36:00.000-08:00

||*Love is not feeling easy around a person.
Its when you feel uneasy without the person around you...*||

||*Love is not about giving company in doing things.
Its about being a companion for life...*||

||*Love is not about sharing things with a person.
Its about giving up your own for the person...*||

Kyrr rawks! Hehee.. Cool kanz.. Thanks boy!! Hehee.. =) *smiles*

sad sad me...

2004-12-19T16:47:00.000-08:00

Knew the signs wasn't right.I was stupid for awhile.Swept away by you.And now I feel like a fool.So confused,My heart's bruised Was I ever loved by you...? Out of reach so far. I never had your heart.Out of reach couldn't see,we were never meant to be.Catch myself from despair.?I could drown if I stay here.Keeping busy everyday I know I will be ok...But I was so confused,my heart's bruised was I ever loved by you..?So much hurt.So much pain.Takes a while to regain what is lost inside.And I hope that in time you'll be out of my mind.And I'll be over you...

Kyrr's aint asleep yet..Can't sleep.. But eyes are already teary.. So ntyes everyone!!
*TaTtY tEdDy LuRvE*...19 dEcEmBeR 04...*TaTtY tEdDy LuRvE*
**kYrRs WisHiNg A hApPy 3rD mOnThSaRy WiTh NaSrUl**
***i lUrVe YoU lOtS nO mAtTeR wHaT,aLtHoUgH i MyTe Be LoNeLy***

~ HaPpIe 3Rd MoNtHsArY oF tRuE lOvE & FrIeNdShIp BtWn Us ~
Lurva lots Tatty Teddy Lurve..

New Layout!!

2004-12-18T22:55:00.000-08:00

Yahoo!! Got a ner layout for my bloggie.. Hahaa.. I'm already sick and tired of the previous one.. Hahaaz.. But this current one not bad also right..?? Hehee.. HmM,well.. my mind's blank right now.. Aint know what to blogg.. But hey.. will still be updating tonite larh.. Hehee..

Finished packing up my clothes already.. All books and bags are seperated.. Gosh!! I am only left with 3 bagss seh!! 1 brownn bagpack 1 brownn sling bag 1 red checkered sling bag.. Geez!! Used to have lotsa them seh.. Haizz.. Suppose not using that much bag anymore.. But I forgot one thing.. My teddies!!! Dint pack them up together with my clothes.. Gosh!! Still sleep with them though.. So, later later lah can pack them up.. Hehee..

Haizz..!! Missing my *TaTtY tEdDy LuRvE*.. Haizz.. Biler lah you nak online.. Never call..Never message.. Hmm,nevermind lah.. Must be busy.. Very very very very busyy.. HmM.. Gotta blast!!

KyRr...tAtTy TeDdY lUrVe...KyRr

edit.edit.edit

2004-12-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

Hey hey hey.. Went to town just now with my mummy.. Was cool.. Bought some Christmas presents for her friends though.. Hmm,was a very great day.. Enjoyed myself.. And yah, Abg Ghalid got a cool phrase for me.. "I push my fingers into my eyes to stop the heartache..Suffer In Silence..." Cool kan!! Hehee.. Thanks bro!! Ahaks!!

And because of him jugak.. I become so emoish already.. Hehee.. He's MD got these lovely love songs..Oldies nyer.. Then all sedih2.. Kaoz!! Sad giler seh.. Sampai ternangis-nangis.. Hehee... And I forgot One thing. Forgot to elaborate something about the previous post..

"Think between me and him is over..." Was referring to my schoolmate.. He was my bestest friend seh.. Then now he seems to change alot.. Kaoz!! Your bestfriend boy!! How could you just leave me alone.. Been talking to you about our problems together.. And *poof* you're gone far away from me.. Sedih sak!!! Haiz.. Just wish you could come back.. You're my bestest friend!!! *BooHoo*

Yah..tadi pun nas was online.. Wanted to say hi then he dah log off.. Was it my fault..?? Haizz. Sorry lah if it was all cause of me.. Bubbles! (",)

Cousin's Night Out...Ahakz!

2004-12-18T01:29:00.000-08:00

Wahahaa..!! Cousin's craziee..!! Wahaha.. I am online right now... Abg Ghalid's on the phone with Janna.. WooHoo!! And yah.. Tidak ku sangka my beloved cousin's so emo!! Hahahaa... And he is also playing the guitar... Entah betul ke tak chords yang dia main tuu.. Hehee.. And one more thing.. Suara dia sedap ke..?? Hehee..

YahYah.. Was just very freaking bored... Talked to Janna fer awhile.. Hahaa... Cool jugak lah.. But Janna..!! You should have asked me along!!! *tears!!* Hehehe.. Next tyme must bring me along no matter what.. You know what I mean... And yah, Think between me and him is over... Haiz.. Mind's Haywired!! Haizz... Just wish he could understand...

Okiesh lah.. Farhan pun dari tadi begging me to conference.. But hey, Sorry lah. I cunt.. KuzZ using the phone.. Chatting with Janna.. So sorry Farhan,Agus,Asri,Azri & Irfan!! So very sorry!!! (",) Ntyes Sumer!! =)

LoVe HuRtS!

2004-12-17T22:46:00.000-08:00

Love hurts..Love scares..Love wounds and never mares any heart.Not tough not strong enough to take a lot of pain..Love is like a cloud,holds alot of rain..Love hurts...I'm young I know but even so I learned a thing or two from you..I've really learned alot..Love is like a stove..Burn's you when its hot..Some fools rave of happiness,blissfullness,togetherness...Some fools fool themselves.I guess.. But they're not fooling me..I know it isn't true.. Love is just a lie made to make you blue..Love Hurts!!

BuBbLeS!!

Will you still love me..?

2004-12-17T22:33:00.000-08:00

Take me as I am.Put your hand in mine now and forever.Darling here I stand.Standing before you now.Deep inside I always knew.It was you.You and Me.Two hearts drawn together bound by destiny.It was you and you for me.Every road leads to your door.Every step I take for evermore.Just say you love me for the rest of your life.I got a lot of love and I dont want to let go.Will you still love me for the rest of my life..?Cause I cant go on. No I cant go on.If I'm on my own.Take me as I am. Put your heart in mine.Stay with me forever.Cause I'm just a girl who never understood.I never had a thing to prove.Till there was you.Then it all came clear so suddenly.How close to you that I wanna be.Do you believe a love could run so strong? Do you believe a love could pass you by? There was no special one for me.I was the lonely one you see.But then my heart lost all control.Now you're all that I know...

..But now everything's down the drain..
..I think.. Haizz..
..Bubbless!..

haiz...

2004-12-17T22:10:00.000-08:00

Wished I had told him how I felt.Maybe he'd be here right now.But instead,I pretend that I am glad that he went away.Peaceful walks closing more everyday.And I am dying inside and nobody know's it but me.Like a clown I put on a show.Painting it real even nobody knows.And I am crying inside.Ya,hMm.. Why didn't I say the things I needed to say.How could I let my angel get away.Now my world is just tumbling down.I can see it clearly but you are no where around.

The lights are long and the days are so sad.And I just kept thinking about the love that we had.And I'm missing you and nobody knows it but me.Carrying a smile when I'm broken in two.And I'm nobody without someone like you.And I'm trembling inside.Lie awake its a quater past three.I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd leave me.How good can I get..?You could ask my heart and like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart.A million words couldn't say just how I feel,a million years from now you know I'll be loving you still...Tomorrow morning I'm hitting the dusty road.Gonna find you where ever.Where ever you might go.And I know I hold my heart and I hope you come back to me...

...specially for my boo...
...Nasrul...
...harts torn...
...Bubbles!...